Hi - I am recovering from a really difficult, stressfull period where I can now see I was living with coping mechanisms which haven't done me any favours with my confidence, self esteem and meeting my own needs.
My relationship is not good and I recognise this as something I can't compromise on anymore and I feel very isolated (work for myself - people moved away, sister lives abroad).
Anyhow, I have been doing well managing my feelings and anxiety and somedays I feel back to confident self. I booked a ticket to a concert in London a few months ago, something I used to do many years ago and well, now I feel very scared of going.
Totally shaken me that I feel this way, I have been living with negative, coping skills for so long, when I do go and do something to shake it all off and enjoy, the anxiety and habit thinking tends to resurface. I am scared of spending the whole time anxious.........
The main thing is, I was going with my partner (although he isn't in the slightest bit interested) and now I don't want him to come. We are not getting on and this trip represents something for me. The trouble is, I don't have anyone to come with me and I realised that on top of the anxiety, I will be travelling at night - last train 11.30pm and an hour and a half journey.
I have thought through the times, the taxi's etc but really, I wonder whether I am being stupid to even think of travelling late at night on my own. Regardless of my anxiety - or is this avoidance? I really am stuck as to the best thing to do 'for me'.
Its been years since I did things just for me on my own like this, I used to do it all the time. In my 40's and feel a total whimp? Is this common or is it my anxiety?
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BrighterLight · 23/03/2014 23:51
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