I don't want to keep self harming please help me stop

[hlipop]

I have been doing for 12 years or so and I can't even remember what started it. I feel like I can't function properly without it. I can't process emotions properly I'm stuck in my own little bubble. everyone close to me thinks I've given up self harming but realistically I've just been hiding it better. I want to stop I just don't know how to start stopping. I feel like my life isn't worth living otherwise. like it's a lie. nothing feels real. I'm not sure I even want to be alive any more :-(

[MrsMuddyPuddles]

oh hon! ((un-mumsnet-y hugs))

What sort of help/treatment have you gotten about this and other things? Councelling? ADs/anti-anxiety meds?

I totally third what Millie said- bringing it up here is step one, reaching out to someone in real life (even just calling Mind) is step 2.

[amillionyears]

I second everything that Millie said.

It sounds like you are ready to stop.
There are many on MN who support you through the process, once you choose to take the first few steps.

[Millie2013]

I don't have the answers, but I do know that you simply cannot go through this alone. Self harm can be so isolating, so it's no wonder that you feel like you are stuck in a bubble.

Can you reach out to someone, either a friend or family member? Or your GP or (if you can afford it) a private therapist. I'm guessing that it will be hard for you to stop without addressing the underlying emotional stuff and asking for help can be the first step, please don't try to get through this on your own

Big hugs xx