Thank you!!
I swear I'm fighting this anxiety full frontal I shall list what I have done in 2 days to impress myself! Oh and apparently my therapist is not erm... useless the first few session, I speak lots she listens and attempts to work out WTF to do with my wacko brain! Poor lady, she has her work cut out.
Okay I have:
Drove with a semi flat tyre.
Garage tyre thing didn't work so drove further and to a new petrol station I didn't look like dumb ass blonde and pretend not to know how to inflate the tyre I filled the machine with 20ps and just put the metal object on my tyre and press it's lever and voila - I inflated a tyre, okay this may seem minimal but for me it's a big anxiety of mine.
I then, drove to a new garage and yews I was confused as I have no idea what petrol to use a new garages but a man was waiting so I felt slightly anxious and chose green, that worked!
So that was all yesterday.
Today
I couldn't find any suitable Nike clothing due to the weather, so I walked the dog in this hissing rain.
I then came home see he time panicked slightly, as had GP at 9.20am, faced another fear .... the GP car park, I have to say I impressed myself, I reversed into a space without hitting anything/one.
I spoke with the GP, almost winked at the dishy one who I know I am destined to marry one day, possibly when I have less problems and move to another practice, he smiled at me twice and went I love him, we sit together talking when I can him for an appointment (popular GP) and we sit and together......forget the GP QUIET, he is married fgs!
Anyway, then I came home for an hour, then back out to another horrid carpark, I waited 5 minutes on a space and decided to try my luck in a private parking zone which I half thought may lock me in, I arrived back after 45 minutes and voila car was intact, not locked in and no fines.
I then had a man come here at 1.00pm, I was sure he was coming to throw me out of my new house for my children putting muddy hands on the walls but he didn't I must stop threatening the children with 'one more dirty mark and we move to Easterhouse flats with the penniless people' I am starting to believe my lies. He just asked 5 questions and left..
So I think I may well get to keep this house, dirty marks and all.
Thank goodness this week is almost over, I don't even have to leave the house until Tuesday if I don't wish to now!!! Oh that may be a worry, not a big fat of the contraceptive jab in the buttock, it's necessary through, it'sthat or roll around for a week every month in agony, then support worked on Tuesday after sore buttock (I'm getting clever here, planning things on the same day).
Then a week today I have to.... oh yes my psychologist for an hour (does anyone else crave a bed to lie on or is that just me?) then some policemen at 2pm (not in trouble I am always good, nervous wreck but not troublesome).
So all good here.
Hope everyone else is fine-ish. Try trick the anxiety by just GOING OUT AND DOING THINGS!! Okay, I do cave in sometimes but this week, so far so good!
I find if my children have to go somewhere, get the phone numbers of the parents better still take the children so you know where they are and can go get them at any point!