Hi
I've not posted in this section before but I'd really appreciate your views on my current mental state. It feels a bit odd calling it that, but that's what it is I suppose. Anyway, I'm experiencing the following and have started to wonder whether I am depressed or whether it's just life..
I keep forgetting things or thinking I have done things when I haven't, like say putting the hot water on so I can have a bath - then running the bath and it's freezing because actually I haven't put the hot water on. It's starting to get really annoying.
I keep feeling like I just want to be left alone by my family - and to a lesser extent friends - in the evenings and weekends. I find it a massive effort to be bothered with the children (that sounds awful). I do all the cooking and cleaning, looking after stuff but actually I often just wish they'd be quiet and go somewhere else for a bit Not all the time, but a lot at the moment. On the other hand, DS2 is tantrumming a lot and it is hard just now. I have him at home with me all day tomorrow and am dreading it a bit.
I keep getting unreasonably anxious about things.
I am eating too much (big history of eating disorders).
I am sick to death of housework and the tedium of cooking and cleaning, and dread stupid things like having to put the bins out and bring them back in again.
At work I feel like I am rubbish but somehow managing to convince people that I am doing an ok job. I wake up at night worrying about it.
So - how does that sound? It's not constant but it has been on and off for a few months now and I am right in the middle of all the above. This has been triggered by family woes that don't affect me personally but have set off things from the past. The difference between now and rough patches of yore is that now I am actually worrying myself - does that make any sense?
Apologies if I don't reply tonight, I might not be able to get online again. If you got this far without falling asleep, thanks for reading.
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Does this sound like depression?
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TheProvincialLady · 17/10/2012 20:00
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