Need some help to get through the week.

[Lonelymum]

Well, I have finally succumbed and decided to admit here that things are going badly for me again. Just the usual moan: dh is away and I feel so put upon and dragged down, children are such hard work, I am scared of everything, even my own shadow at times. Not helped by feeling so tired lately although I am having a blood test for that tomorrow, so at least I am able to do that for myself.

I just need some help to get through to the weekend, if anyone feels prepared to chat and keep an eye out for me.

[Lonelymum]

Well, if all goes well, I will go shopping tomorrow (with ds3). We have money problems to add to everything else, but I have some vouchers from my birthday so I want to go and spend them - probably just underwear because I don't feel inspired to shop for clothes at this time of year. But anything new will be nice.

At the weekend, dh will be home and frankly, I have every intention of leaving him with the kids and going to the cinema on my own. I wish I could go with him, but we don't have a babysitter.

Then the slog will start again. I wonder how many nights I will be alone next week? I just don't know who single parents do it, except of course they have no choice.

[littlerach]

So what are yuor plans for tomorrow?

And for the weekend?

Think you should plan something really nice to do, then you'll have something to look forward to.

[Lonelymum]

Ow my arm hurts!

I am not afraid of needles and injections and blood being taken etc, and was putting on a cheery face for ds3 as he saw ds2 screaming and climbing the walls last week when he had to have a flu jab last week, so I wanted to show ds3 that needles didn't have to hurt...but boy! my arm is hurting now and the blood was taken 90 minutes ago!

Still, didn't need to worry about crying, as the nurse wasn't the talkative type - just took the blood and ignored me!

[NASWM]

Good luck for the blood test. Dont worry about crying in front of the nurse. Might do you good! Let us know how you get on.

[Lonelymum]

Oh that's OK. I just got rather flustered, wondering who I was talking to, especially when you said I had helped you before: my mind was racing. But I don't want to pry.

Well, off to have some blood drawn from me now. Hope I don't break down and cry in front of the nurse - she is bound to ask me how I am feeling and I have a tendency of being too honest on those occasions.

[NASWM]

I can't lie, I do have another name but I haven't used it for a very long time (and wont be using it anymore), but I think you have only known me as this! (Sorry, I don't mean to be secretive!)

[Lonelymum]

Yes but who were you before? Or weren't you?

[NotaStrongWomanMe]

Got it now????

I had to add the 'me' bit to the end, but then it was very long so became NASWM

Should have just gone for something easier in the first place I know

[Lonelymum]

Well I feel very thick as I can't work out who you are! Is it a secret, your name change? Any hints you could give me?

[NASWM]

Yes had to change my name slightly as I got a new email address. And then decided the abbreviation was easier on the eyes!

[NASWM]

Forgot about DS3! Maybe a walk in the park after the blood test before Tescos?

I'm not sure there is much you can do for me actually. I'm trying to decide how to deal with things in my life, and I'm the only one who can do that really. But thanks. I have a very good friend in RL who is helping, but I am trying not to over-burden her, IYKWIM

[Lonelymum]

NASWM, Have you changed your name btw?

[Lonelymum]

Yes, blood test today, must go and get ds3 dressed! The peaceful coffee bit afterwards isn't on as I have ds3 with me and I have to go to Tesco - boring!

Is your misery anything I can help with? I might be drowning in my own sorrows, but I don't mind helping with someone else's. It makes me feel better in a way.

[NASWM]

Oh LM what a day already?! The kids will be fine once they get into school. Is it today you've got your blood test? Good luck for that. Can you try to get a nice coffee somewhere afterwards and sit with a magazine for half an hour? just a thought. I'm not particularly good with advice at the moment as I'm down myself, but wanted to let you know I was thinking of you. I remember your helpful words to me last year. Stay in touch. NASWM

[Lonelymum]

Well, just sent my three older children to school after ranting at them non-stop for about 10 minutes prior to them waling ut the door (par for the course - I rarely manage a civilised goodbye, have a nice day) and confiscating 2 gameboys indefinitely. Earlier had a run-in with the youngest too.

I have only been up 2 hours and already I am ready for bed.

[Yummymummy24]

poor you it sounds tough, sorry to hear you feel down. My dp used to work away every week it was really hard, was scared of burgalars etc!!!! Got huge dog now and he doesnt go away much so much better although sometimes i must admit i miss the peace and quiet, remote to myself, no snoring etc!!!!

[emanspiks]

hi lonelymum keep your chin up i have been through a rough time too and i really know how hard it is especially with the little uns do they go to bed early so you get a little peace by yourself if they do have a nice hot bath with candle and realx sound like you need it hunny xxx

[Lonelymum]

Thanks for your support. I just had to nip out to take ds1 and d22 to cubs, and of course, with two others too, there is no such thing as "nipping" anywhere.

MTS, yes I feel exhausted. Maybe anaemic too. Certainly at the end of my tether.

SS, yes I hope to go shopping on Friday as I have a bit omoney in the form of vouchers left over from my birthday. Still, with ds3 in tow, it won't be any sort of pleasure trip.

Littlerach, well I live on tenterhooks when dh is away and in between times too, waiting for him to tell me when his next trip is. The last couple of trips (in the last 2 weeks) didn't go too badly, but this time, I just feel unable to carry on. I suppose, it is the number of trips building up, rather than anything else. I hate it being so cold too. I do feel I would feel marginally better if I could just sit in my garden and soak up the sun, but I can't bring myself to go out when it is so cold.

Moondog, oh, who knows? A complete personality change maybe? WEAK

[moondog]

Oh LM....

What would cheer you up,girl??

[littlerach]

Hi LM, it is hard when they are away, I dread DH going, though am usually ok once he has gone.

I find it is a horrid time of the year, dull and cold. Nothing much to look forward to.

I will be around over the weekend (DH away and DD2 has chickenpox) so I will keep a look out for you.

[mummytosteven]

Hello, sorry things aren't going well for you at the moment. Sounds like you are feeling exhausted - I hope the blood tests, if they do pick up anything. pick up something mild and easily resolved.