I listened to the experts. They all said we needed to stay.
To be fair, I've always felt we should be closer to the EU, not further away. I was born in Europe, although I have lived in the UK for most of my life. I knew that the anti-EU stories published over the years by the UK press were a pack of lies.
As the Referendum got underway, I looked at who was running the Leave campaign. I didn't like a single one of them: John Redwood has always been an utter prat, best forgotten - I couldn't believe that anyone was listening to him. And Jacob Rees-Mogg! Who the hell was he? I remember that question being asked when Mumsnet kept getting those bizarre "Moggy for PM" posts all that time ago. Michael Gove. Boris Johnson. Nigel Farage. All men for whom I felt contempt and I knew damn well they only had their own selfish interests at heart.
They had no plan, only soundbites and that irritated me, too. The lies on the bus, the prevarications and misinformation all annoyed me.
However, what really worried and frightened me was the thought of being on our own against the power of the US and Russia. It still does. The US has shown repeatedly that it doesn't care about its own citizens, let alone those of other nations. Russia, at the time, was playing military chicken with us and other European countries.
I tried hard to think of one benefit of Leaving. I couldn't. So I voted Remain.
Everything since then has confirmed my decision:
The immediate cowardice and self-preservation of the Government in disappearing for the weekend following the Referendum while they decided on their statements.
The European mother crying with relief on my doorstep when she dropped her child off after a terrifying weekend of racist attacks reported around the country (Why? Because, like many childminders, I have a Welcome notice on my door in various languages including hers).
The total lack of any planning or understanding of the issues involved.
The embarrassing performance of those who are meant to be governing the country.
It has all served to make me furiously angry with the fools who have allowed all this to happen.
Most infuriating of all, it's my understanding that those greedy, contemptible bastards who have engineered this stand to make absolute fortunes out of selling our country down the river.
Well, I'd quite like to prevent that happening, so I'm still going to fight for Remain where I can. I didn't realise I was a vindictive person until I watched, with delight, Jacob Rees-Mogg falling flat on his face with his stupid bloody ERG revolution attempt and thought "Good!!!" and more besides.