Is this a positive ovulation test? Pic included

[Princessnthepea86]

Hi everyone. I have had really weird cycles lately and I think I'm ovulating on cd20-32 so ovulation tests are a must for me. I seem to be getting a LOT of nearly positives and then they will go again but today is CD21 and I think it's a positive. I just wanted some other opinions... This is so confusing

[Princessnthepea86]

Hey! yay for time off. I'm off this week, I booked holiday. Ok not actually going anywhere but I just wanted the week off.

Well the scan wasn't bad but it wasn't what I was hoping for either. I know when inoculated so I know I am 6+1 today, however when i went for the scan I should have been 5+6. All they could find was a sack and a yolk sac. She didn't seem worried and said that I was just early (she thinks 5 weeks). I know I'm not though, so despite what she says I'm not totally happy. At 5+5 with my other kids I saw a heartbeat. Also I have had no sickness still.... Just the tiniest little bit which comes and goes. Everyone is telling me to be optimistic but I think if i prepare myself for the worst then anything else is a bonus. I have got another scan on the 20th of this month (5 days away).

Ya I haven't ever felt anything at 6dpo, but you do hear about women feeling stuff. Is it in their head though at that point? Maybe! That will be exciting! Lol are you going abroad so taking your own tests or are you staying in the uk for your holiday and going to nip out and get some when it's time to test? X

[LillyBugg]

I'm like you and prefer to prepare for the worst rather than be optimistic! So first on my holiday list will be tampons, followed by pregnancy tests. Just a UK holiday, I'll shove some tests in anyway as it'll be cheaper, I've got so many in the house anyway.

Im sorry your scan wasn't what you hoped. At least you have another really soon, I really hope it is what you want to see.

I'm so glad to be at home for a few days now. Work is so stressful at the moment. We've been talking about me resigning, but I need to wait until September before making any big choices. Hopefully I'll be pregnant by then anyway and I'll just be able to stick it out until mat leave. Fingers crossed!! X

[Princessnthepea86]

Yes I think it's always best to expect the worst. I have told my mum and sister now and they keep telling me that my dates are probably off. I can't seem to get them to understand that i know when I ovulated to there isn't any possible way I can be earlier than what I know I am, however I do know that babies can measure slightly behind and then catchup (I believe by a whole 2 weeks) so I'm really hoping that is the case. It's the only possible scenario other than there being something wrong, so fingers crossed. However the lack of morning sickness is concerning to me so again, preparing for the worst.

I really hope you get some exciting bfp news on your holiday and you don't have to think about resigning just yet. Maybe Mat leave would be enough time to get a nice long breather and think about things. I was going to leave my job and get another after my 6 months of going back to work. I was going to leave unless I got pregnant again. However if something goes wrong with this pregnancy then I will still leave my job, get another and wait until I have been there long enough and try again. I just can't possibly stay at my job any longer than I have to! 😓

I hope you have a lovely holiday. Let me know how you get on if you have to test (when you get back, I don't expect you to message me whilst your away lol). X

[Princessnthepea86]

I know your on holiday, hoping you got good news and your bfp! You chose an amazing week to go away. Hope your relaxing and having a good time either way! X

[LillyBugg]

Oh holiday isn't until next week :) finished work for the summer today though!!

I've been spotting today. But according to ovulation tests I'm not due on until Sunday. Slightly tempted to say it could be implantation but feeling like I might come on tomorrow :(

Wasn't our scan today? How did it go?

[LillyBugg]

Wasn't it your?*

[Princessnthepea86]

So your 11dpo? You have willpower of steel! Haha. No way I was able to wait that long. I really really hope it's IB for you.

Yes I had my scan today. Everything looks great and I even saw a little heartbeat today. Im so happy, I really thought something was wrong. My sickness is still coming and going (although today it's been pretty bad but in hoping its just the heat). Xx

[LillyBugg]

Haha to be honest I didn't actually realise that I'm that many dpo which is really unlike me. I've just been quite busy the last week or so and then the spotting made me check dates.

I'm so pleased your scan went well, you sounded so worried before. You just have been incredibly relieved to see that heartbeat! Maybe you'll just have less sickness this time, here's hoping!!

[LillyBugg]

Sadly not an IB, just af earlier than planned. :(

[Princessnthepea86]

Oh no :( I'm so sorry Lillybug! I know how hard the wait is. Maybe it will be lucky number 11 for you to! Although I hope it's earlier than month 11 for you. Right before holiday to! That sucks Xx

[Princessnthepea86]

Hey Lillybug. I know it's been a while! I have found out today that the baby has passed. I've decided that we won't be trying again for another couple of years. Really hope you got your bfp!! Take care xxx

[LillyBugg]

Oh Princess I am so so sorry to hear that. I have been thinking of you as well :( we got back from holiday last weekend and then I've been pretty busy but kept thinking I must check in with you. I just can't believe this :( I wish there were some magic words I could say for you to make it better. If you want to hang around and chat please do, I usually log on most days. No bfp here, in the tww at the moment. I can see why you would want to wait before trying again, whatever is right for you is the right thing to do x

[Princessnthepea86]

Hey Lillybug! I have been so so busy. I wasn't going to come back but at the moment I'm torn. I really want to try again (like I always said I would if I had an early loss) but I took this so hard! Luckily though, I have managed to keep myself busy with a weekend away and work and get through the last 2 weeks pretty good, all things considered.

How did you 2ww go?? I really hope you got your bfp! I ended up having a Erpc (minor surgery to remove the baby) because I'm not sure if I have mentioned before but I had a rare uterine disease called a uterine AVM which has not gone, but because of my past the didn't want me to have a medically induced miscarriage. Which I'm glad about. My first pregnancy I hung around for 2 weeks waiting to pass the baby and this time, I went to sleep and woke up and it was done. To my suprise though the nausea was still bad for a week. I suppose the hormones took a while to go down.

ANYWAY since my Erpc (it's been 15 days now) the bleeding had totally stopped, however because my sickness was so bad with the pregnancy my husband and I have seemed to have got out libidos back hahaha and the last 4 night have done the baby dance unprotected. I'm not actively trying to get pregnant again because to be honest I really don't want to do another year of compulsing over something that will end so suddenly again, but if it happens then I'm happy with it also. I think I am going to do the not trying but not preventing thing.

All things considered I'm really good right now.

I hope you have some great news to tell me! I would love to keep on contact about what is going! Xxx

[LillyBugg]

Oh princess I'm so pleased to hear from you! I've been thinking about you and assuming you would find it too hard to come back on this thread. I'm glad you're feeling okay all things considered. I can't even begin to imagine what it would have been like for you.

I was surprised when you said you'd leave it a year. But I guess the distress of it all would make you feel like that. Not trying and not preventing sounds like a nice relaxed way forward. I do wonder the realities of it though because I always seem to be super aware of my cycle!

No news to share I'm afraid. I was pretty gutted last cycle as we'd been on holiday and I've been off work so super relaxed but still no. So onwards to cycle 10. I'll be honest I'm finding it all quite hard at the moment. It's not even a baby I particularly want, I just really want DS to have a sibling, and it's the life I want for all of us in the future, a bigger family than just the 3 of us. Everywhere I look there seems to be people with more than one child. I even notice things like Peppa bloody pig having a sibling, how ridiculous!

Welcome back I really am pleased that you seem OK.

[Princessnthepea86]

Oh no! I was hoping to hear you had gotten your bfp,maybe it will be lucky number 11 for you also(hopefully with abetted outcome though). I'm really not sure if I believe the whole 'relax and it will happen' thing. It always seems to be the craziest and busiest months I have seemed to get pregnant.

To be honest part of doesn't even want to try again. The sickness was awful and it's still quite raw in my mind, also since this has all happened I'm considering buying my house, which would make maternity difficult to take in the future. I feel like it took me a solid 11 months of trying and timing it right to get pregnant so with not taking ovulation tests I still don't believe my chances of getting pregnant are very good at all. I guess I'm just totally torn about what I want in my head... So I'm leaving up to chance. I have decided though that IF I did fall pregnant again and I had another early or late loss then that would be our family done. I wouldn't do it again and that's for definite.

I can imagine how you feel. I know when I'm trying for a baby, I can only see babies everywhere! I guess it's the same but with siblings. Haha peppa pig! I can totally relate though. On a serious side though, it's totally heartbreaking when you want something so bad though and it seems to come so easy for everybody else. after your scan came back ok though I'm sure it's only a matter of time for you! Easier said than done I know but when it happens, the wait will be worth it.

So for me, I'm back on my ovia app. It's the only thing I'm going to track... And even then I'm not really going to make an effort to have sex on my fertile days, I'm literally just going to use it as a guide so if I do get pregnant then I will be able to see when it happened.

[LillyBugg]

I don't use the Ovia app, is it any good? I'm not sure which one it is that I use, fertility friend maybe? I don't log much in it though to be honest, just period days to keep track of things. I don;t bother with temperature, and mucus and all that stuff as I figure recording it isn't going to make any difference as to whether or not I actually get pregnant. I do log positive ovulation tests though actually, and sex if I remember.

I got a positive ovulation test today, but trying to convince DH into dtd last night was hard enough, so I'm not sure what we'll do today. I'll have to up my game! I get that he's tired etc but I do get a little frustrated that if he's not in the mood I have to put in all the effort, it would appear that my mood is not really relevant. He doesn't mean anything by it, it's just hard being forced into it on certain days I guess.

I was never totally convinced by the 'relax and it'll happen' line, but so many people seem to say it that I suppose it got stuck in my head. It will happen when it happens though, regardless of what else is going on.

We went through the process of buying our house when I was pregnant, the sale went through when DS was 6mo. It wasn't great timing but our landlady wanted to sell and we didn't want to move. It can be done, and sitting in the bank talking to the mortgage adviser and saying 'sorry what childcare costs?' with a massive baby bump under my dress was rather amusing

I can understand you feeling rather conflicted about it all, there is no right or wrong choice and I can imagine you are still rather emotional about it all? What does your DH/DP think?

[LillyBugg]

Princess are you still around? I've just realised I'm 10dpo and I've not tested. Should I? Shouldn't I? Hope you're okay

[Princessnthepea86]

Yes I'm here!! I'm sorry I have been so busy with work and the kids going back to school... Plus smallest Dd is teething and it's a nightmare! Oh wow your 10dpo! Yes defo test!! I really really hope this is it for you! I hope you get a HUGE BFP! Xx

[Princessnthepea86]

I'm officially 4 week post DnC but yet to still get my period... They said it can happen between 4-6 weeks but I have been dtd (not even on purpose) every day nearly or every other day. I took a test today and it's a bfn so I'm just waiting now to see what's happening. I guess I will find out within the next 13 days but I highly doubt I'm pregnant again, I just don't feel it this month. Plus with not tracking I don't know if I even have ovulated, or will. So not optimistic but I'm okay with it. Xx

[LillyBugg]

You sound quite relaxed which is nice . Even if it's not this month at least if you get your period you'll be back to knowing what's going on with your cycle, it must be hard not really knowing where you are, even if you aren't ttc.

I'll see how I feel in the morning, I'd rather test alone I think so will wait for DH to go out. It won't be fmu but it doesn't matter...I wish I could be hopeful but I'm just really not! I think I'm just so far into trying now that it realistically happening doesn't even seem possible.

I'm actually really surprised that I'm 10 dpo. I checked my app thinking I was about 6 lol!

[Princessnthepea86]

Ya it is hard. I did take one ovulation test about 3 weeks ago because I felt some twinges and it was positive but then I realised I probably had some pregnancy hormones still left... So I took a pregnancy test and it was still positive :( since then I haven't taken anymore because I promised myself I wouldn't do it and I won't now. We have thrown caution to the wind this time because... Well I don't know to be honest but we have talked and if it's a not pregnant this month then we are going to give up for a year. We are going to America next year to see my family and i really don't want to be pregnant when I go because I really want to enjoy myself. To be able to have a glass of wine if I want one.

Yes I know what you mean... After so long you hope for a BFP but you don't actually expect it. You become a bit desensitised by the bfn's all the time. It does happen though! Fingers crossed. It's great that you are further than you thought, at least time isn't dragging... That's the worst! Xxx

[LillyBugg]

Oh I bet seeing that positive test was awful. A pregnancy free America trip sounds brilliant, and a really nice thing to look forward to.

I cracked and told dh I was thinking of taking a test. I've attached it for you. Pretty sure I can see a line! It just doesn't seem real though because like you said you get so desensitised I just think it can't be real.

I also have DS's birthday party today and he has a cold so I don't really have much time to think about it!

[Princessnthepea86]

Omg yay! That's clear. You got your BFP!! So happy for you xxxx

[LillyBugg]

Oh I hope it is Princess. The line is not any clearer today, not at all darker so I'm a bit disappointed. It probably doesn't help that DH isn't convinced by a faint line at all. I really thought it would be darker this morning, I hope it doesn't mean it's a chemical. I so want it to be a positive.

[Princessnthepea86]

No those tests just aren't super sensitive. You would need to test with a first response to see a good progression line, even then I think they say HCG doubles every 48hours so I wouldn't worry about it not being any darker yet. Eek! Your going to have to go out and get a digital for him! 😃😃