My beautiful, brave Harry bear

[dizzy34]

I have posted alot in the special needs section over the years. I am heart broken. My beautiful, brave Harry passed away peacefully on tuesday in mine and his daddys arms. I am lost, heartbroken. I want him back so much. I want to kiss him and cuddle him. I want him. He was only five and had been very ill and disabled since birth (www.harrysjourney.co.uk). He took us all by suprise though. we knew we wouldnt have him long, but i didnt think he would go this soon. He had been ill at christmas and was only given hours to live, but he fought it. It left him exhaused and he slept most days, all day. He couldnt fight anymore.

I love him so much. He is in the butterfly suite at claire house at the moment and we are spending time with him till his funeral on friday. I miss him so much it hurts physically. I know he is better where he is and that his body works now, but i want him with me. Please tell me it gets easier.

[olivo]

Dizzy, so sorry to read this. wishing strength to you and your family and peace to little Harry.

[Nemoandthefishes]

Dizzy I am so sorry for your loss and am 100% sure you are right that Harry is playing with the other angels from his site and will be relieved of his pain and discomfort from earth.

[Lotstodo]

So sorry to hear of your loss of your precious baby. Thinking of you and your family.

[suedonim]

Oh Dizzy, I'm so sorry. I've looked at Harry's website and am overwhelmed at Harry's and your family's journey.

Thinking of you all, Sue xx

[feedmenow]

Dizzy, thinking of you and your family. Sending you love and strength to help you through these early days, and all the sad days ahead. I looked at the website and think Harry looks absolutely gorgeous. He sounds like a star. xxx

[lilyloo]

What a lovely photo of him with his daddy.

[ladymariner]

I'm so sorry for you and your family, such a beautiful boy. Thinking of you
xxxxxxxxxx

[PollyPentapeptide]

Oh Dizzy, what beautiful pictures of Harry and your wonderful family. I am so so sorry X

[margoandjerry]

What a beautiful boy - it's a terrible loss and I'm so sorry.

[Amapoleon]

So sorry xxx

[droopytits]

oh dizzy, how very sad. Thinking of you and all your family.
Saw the website for Harry - what a beautiful boy and such a brave man.
Please take care of each other at this awful time.

[MarsLady]

I'm sorry for your loss.

[chunkychips]

Thinking of you and your family, how awful for you all. Just had a look at your website, what a brave boy. Can't imagine what you're going through. xx

[weeonion]

oh dizzy. how sad for you all. thinking of you and hoping that the pain will ease. xxx

[flowerybeanbag]

So sorry to hear you have lost your little boy, thinking of you.

[BecauseImWorthIt]

So sorry. Please make sure that you and your dh and the rest of your family take care of each other as well.

[lilyloo]

I am so very sorry on the loss of your beautiful Harry when your ready there are a bunch of lovely ladies who will know exactly how you are feeling here

[pinkyminky]

Dizzy, I just wanted to say how sorry I am for your loss. Harry was clearly surrounded by so much love in his short life, may he rest in peace.xx

[pussycatmomma]

God in Heaven, what an awful tragedy....thinking of you all. There is nothing a stranger like me can say to ease your pain, apart from I am also a mother. My heart aches for your heart.
xxxx

[missorinoco]

so sorry to hear this.

[JRocks]

So sorry to hear of this, saying prayers for your family at such a sad time x

[frasersmummy]

Hi Dizzy

I am glad you are finding some peace in your day.. wine and a bath sounds ideal.

You will have these feelings coming and going for a long time.

please dont feel like you nave to hide them ..keep talking .. the pain never goes away but you do learn to talk about it and to live with it

[dizzy34]

Thank you all so much for taking the time to post to me. I felt so desperate yesterday, and am so frightened to think that i am going to feel like that again and again. I have panic attacks (im on medication) and they have started up again at night time. Im scared to close my eyes and go to sleep.
Today has been more bearable. I have had a moments of sheer, complete sadness which takes over all my thoughts and icant imagine anything being the same again, but i have had moments where i spent time with my other kids and didnt cry.
My friends and family are being wonderful, as is my lovely hubby and kids (13, 13, 18yrs). These messages have meant so much and thank you to everyone who has taken the time to read his site and sign the guest book.
Im going to have a bath and a glass of wine i think, and read a magazine.
I will keep checking in here as it is making me feel really supported.xxx

[frasersmummy]

Hi Dizzy just checking to see how you are doing today

we are here if you need to talk

[kitkat9]

you poor, poor soul. There are no words.

I'm so sorry for your loss. He was a beautiful little boy.

take care.


x