Need A Hand Hold - DS18 in ICU **Trigger warning**

[JungleZgok]

Just over 18 years ago, when I was in early labour with my wonderful DS I posted on Mumsnet until I went to the hospital (have name changed since then but was a regular poster). I had lots of encouraging posts from lovely mumsnetters and it was so helpful.

Now my DS is in ICU in a critical condition. I have been up nearly all night. My heart is breaking and I have never known grief like this. DS has been suffering from anxiety and depression and has been on meds over the last 7 weeks and having therapy and visits from the Adult Mental Health service but yesterday evening he decided he couldn't face it anymore.

He is such a sweet boy who always thinks of others. We have a great family and he has been talking to his older and younger sister. He has been talking to both me and DH and we have done everything we can to help him and keep him safe. But it hasn't worked.

I want to understand why this has happened and answers and reassurance that he is going to pull through but it is not looking that good. I can't cope. I feel like a shell and have never cried so much or been sick and to the toilet so much. I can't sleep.

Please be kind. I am not feeling that strong at the moment.

[Shimmyshimmycocobop]

Yes please just report and ignore

[vegang]

@MyrtlethePurpleTurtle

Newaccount27522 Has been posting for a few years now. What’s what on earth is gong on?

No they haven't, if you advance search then click on the posts the username is different

[MyrtlethePurpleTurtle]

@MyrtlethePurpleTurtle

Newaccount27522 Has been posting for a few years now. What’s what on earth is gong on?

Ignore my post - the AS search doesn’t work as I thought it did

[IvorCutler]

@MyrtlethePurpleTurtle

Newaccount27522 Has been posting for a few years now. What’s what on earth is gong on?

Wtf? Just completely disgusting. Can we all ignore now though so it doesn’t taint op’s thread.

[runnerblade95]

@Newaccount27522 you’re a piece of fucking shit. Karma is real. That’s all I’m going to say. Fucking scumbag. Sorry MNHQ. Just… Ugh. I won’t say anything else. 🤐

[MyrtlethePurpleTurtle]

Newaccount27522 Has been posting for a few years now. What’s what on earth is gong on?

[runnerblade95]

@pitterypattery00

OP, I'm assuming you are maybe religious as you mentioned your lovely son had been given his last rites. If so, you may be familiar with the hymn 'Bind us Together'. It has brought me great comfort when faced with the loss of a loved one. It makes me imagine all of my family bound together by love, always, whether we are still on this earth or not. You and your family and your son are in my thoughts. X

Bind Us Together, Lord
Bind Us Together
With Cords That Cannot Be Broken
Bind Us Together, Lord
Bind Us Together
Bind Us Together In Love

This.

🙏🙏🙏

❤️

[vegang]

You sick fuck

[MrsVeryTired]

Thinking of you ❤

[sanfranny]

Thinking of you, your family and your son today. Heartbroken for you all. Sending you strength and courage at this time.

[User3568975431146]

You have all been in my thoughts and prayers today and will continue to be. 💞

[CheshireCats]

I am so very sorry. I am struggling to find words, but know that I am thinking of you ♥️

[Mummyoflittledragon]

I am so sorry. Sending love and strength to you all .

[Nametoname]

I am so so sorry and have you and your family in my thoughts. As many have already said, there really aren’t adequate words.

[Ninananna]

My heart goes out to you. Xx

[Eliphanbee]

thinking of you, abd sending lots of love to your family. I can't comprehend what you are going through, I am so, so sorry ❤️

[Suchalicklepumpkin]

You and your family have been on my mind since I read this. I have said a prayer for you all. I am useless with the right words, but am sending you love.

[BlackandBlueBird]

Dearest OP, sending you strength and prayers and warmth and light. I’m picturing your DS’ spirit as those golden, setting rays of sun, shining in through the windows upon you, your DH, and your DDs, holding you in their glow.

[JetTail]

And God forbid, that your little boy has passed, but if he has, he has had a peaceful death.

[ShirleyPhallus]

I’ve also been thinking of you today and sending you my love at such a difficult time

Its really touching to read such compassionate and kind posts on here, I hope the OP is able to take just a tiny pinch of comfort from these here strangers