Our beautiful baby son died a few years ago and tonight my DH has gone to bed not talking to me. Overall it's been a shit weekend.
Last night we were watching tv together and he wanted to watch an episode of ''The Last Kingdom' he had recorded. In it a man was clawing at the ground digging up the body of his baby son who had died. It was pretty graphic and shocking. I left the room and went into the kitchen and muttered aloud to him that I found it upsetting and that I didn't think it was entertainment. He said that these things are sometimes part of the story and that he wasn't going to stop watching stuff every time I found it offensive. We went to bed not talking.
Today I brought my DC's to see a film where one of the main characters died. I welled up in the cinema, and at home afterwards asked the DC's if they found it sad. They said no and joked that they had seen their favourite characters in their computer games die, then my DS 8yo piped up "Sure we've seen a baby die in real life!" I said not to compare his brother to computer game characters and that I was disappointed. My DH told me to calm down and that I wasn't the "only person ever to have lost a child". He hasn't spoken to me for the rest of the day. Said goodnight in a snotty fashion and went up to bed a few minutes ago.
I don't mention our son very often. Naturally Christmas was sad for us but I cried in front of him for the first time in months a week or so ago. He was kind about it then.
He has really rattled my cage this weekend. I sometimes don't like his brusque manner towards me and how cold he can be. I didn't think we would let the sun set on an argument over our beautiful boy.
Btw, I reached out to him twice this evening but he rejected me both times.
Sorry for the rant. I am usually very private on MN but this has made me feel very alone.
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MartinRohdesBellybuttonFluff · 17/01/2016 22:23
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