I WILL to do this

[LosingWeightFeelingGreat]

I am desperate to lose weight. I feel SO unhappy and I am sick of the enduring guilt after the most recent bout of self sabotage.

I want to lose around 3 stone and feel good about myself again, which I haven't done in years. I am 32 and sick of missing the old me. I do not carry extra weight well AT ALL- no shapely curves for me. I have had two c-sections, a twin pregnancy, depression (which has really impacted on my eating) and I've just had enough.

If anyone is in a similar situation or has been I would love to have some company. If not I shall be using this thread to waffle on to myself

Current plan: start using my fitness pal again from tomorrow (I have had some success with this previously) and do some exercise tomorrow.

That's about all I have so far.



Oh and my username is an attempt at positivisty

[Ellieboolou27]

Hi, sounds similar to me, 2 sections, in sertraline which make me constantly feel hungry, 2 under 5's and apple shape, I do not carry my weight well at all and feel so uncomfortable!
I'm using mfp properly again tomorrow, I lost 2st then fell pregnant with my second, now I'm heavier than I was at 9 months!
My issue is I binge on junk like chocolate and crisps once kids in bed, this time of year don't help either!

[LosingWeightFeelingGreat]

Hi Ellie I'm the same with the junk food. I am finding it really hard to control what I eat, especially with sleep deprivation thrown in. My willpower is completely shot

What worked when you lost 2 stone previously, was it calorie counting?

[Unicorn1981]

I had severe anxiety when I was pregnant then after she was born it got better but I was still on sertraline and eating chocolate cereal; chocolate and junk food. When she was 11months I started slimming world. It was November 2013. That Christmas I actually lost weight! Altogether I lost 3 stone 2lbs. I have put some back on though and now I'm struggling!

[Ellieboolou27]

Yep calorie counting on mfp, I stuck to 1500 a day, starting weight was 13 and got to 10.12 then fell pregnant with 2nd! I'm back up to 13! After I had second I went down to 11.4 so only had to lose 7lb to be at my ideal weight, I'm broad so don't look good fat
I wasn't obsessive with tracking either as some days I got bored with it but still lost.
It took me about 7 months but vowed I'd never get big again and I have! tarting mfp today at 1500

[Ellieboolou27]

Come join us unicorn just to lose a few pounds at the moment would be good as I can't carry on getting bigger, it's making me miserable!

[LosingWeightFeelingGreat]

How long did it take you on 1500 calories Ellie? I think I did about 1400 last time but didn't stick at it as long as I should I'm trying to do at least an hour walking with the pram a day (that includes the school run!). I used to do dumbbell exercises from YouTube which I enjoyed so want to start those again

Welcome Unicorn Well done on your previous loss! Do you still do slimming world at all?

[Ellieboolou27]

losing tool about 9 months but I wasn't good all the time, did a 5 mile walk 2-3 times a week, 30 day shred in YouTube is great but not easy! Only 20mins so can do it while baby naps, I've been ok today 650 left for dinner, but my downfall is evening snacking

[LosingWeightFeelingGreat]

Oh I struggled with 30 day shred! I should give it another go really. I also had a DVD from someone who was on one of those reality shows, Charlotte someone? Belly blast I think it was called. I should dig that out as my tummy definitely needs a lot of work!

Today I have been pretty good and I am in my calories! Woo hoo! Only one day but a good start for me.

Have you managed to avoid the evening snacking Ellie? I'm always hungry at night as well!

[Ellieboolou27]

Hi yeah I have that DVD too

I had a low cal dinner of 450 cals ready meal with veg so I could allow 250 got treats so I had a can of red coke (hate Diet Coke and addicted to full sugar) and a bag sweet n salty popcorn, total cals today 1479.
I'm going to have an early night, I think part of the reason I overeat is due to tiredness so I'm forcing myself to go to bed - so I don't raid the kids chocolate coins

[LosingWeightFeelingGreat]

I've had a diet coke addiction for many years but trying to cut back as although obviously calorie free I'm sure it makes me eat more crap.

Anyway, I've had a really bad night of little sleep so I have already fallen on the chocolate. I am trying to do damage limitation and have planned the rest of the day's eating. Fingers crossed

[Ellieboolou27]

I had a terrible night too, 15 month old awake from 2-4am then 4 yo up at 5am! So much for getting a good nights sleep, damage limitation is good, it's extra hard this time of year as it is!
I weighed myself this morning 13.1
Will let u know how I get in next Friday whe. I weigh myself again, would like to lose 3lbs which will no doubt go on again over Christmas

[RedMapleLeaf]

Hi, may I join in?

I'm a stone heavier than I was this time last year. I've just hit that point where I feel fat and blobby. I am squeezing in clothes that are too small for me and feel rubbish. I would like to lose about 11lb.

I am working from home now for a couple of weeks so this is a great time for making a strong start. I calorie count and aim for 1200-1400 depending upon when I know a big meal is coming up. My next meal out is Tuesday night, so I'd like to lose an easy early 2lb by then.

[Stellar67]

Hi everyone, may I join? I also need to lose 3 stone. I snack at night to stay awake.
I'm aiming for 1500 too.

[Ellieboolou27]

Hi red and stellar welcome!

Snacking at night is a killer habit to break so I'm allowing 200-250 cals for nighttime snacks until I can get some control back, sticking to 1500 and weighing myself every Thursday.

I can't keep saying I'll start tomorrow as now a size 16 is getting too tight and I've had enough of feeling fat and miserable.

[LosingWeightFeelingGreat]

Hi Red and Stellar

Oh I don't know why I've done so badly today. Well, I do, I've been up with poorly kids and a baby who decided not to sleep last night! But the consequence is I have nearly used up all my calories already.

I am going to be rather hungry later but you know what? It's not going to kill me to be hungry for the evening. Water and a healthy snack for me. I can"t believe I have eaten so much chocolate today

This is why I need this thread. I would probably have thought 'sod it' and written the rest of the day off whilst ordering a dominos but going to try and hang in there

[Stellar67]

Well done Losing for getting back on track. I know exactly what you mean. Its so easily done.

[Stellar67]

Ellie that's a great idea with the allowance for snacks. I don't as going to try and stick to tangerines and tea.

[Stellar67]

*was not don't as

[RedMapleLeaf]

That's good self-awareness FeelingGreat. This is never going to be a flawless, linear process. Course correction is what is needed long term.

So far, so good here. I'd identified two danger points today. One was meeting friends for dinner at my favourite cafe (I avoided all food and drink and just had water) and the other was getting the munchies this afternoon due to boredom.
So, I'm doing the same as you, drinking water and allowing myself to feel hungry.

Fewer than 600 calories eaten so that I can fill up on some pasta before hitting the gym tonight.

[RedMapleLeaf]

What were everyone's achievements today?

• I have eaten healthy and come in on calorie target. I have even eaten enough protein.
  

• I will hit my 10k steps due to deliberately choosing to walk in the rain and dark rather than taking the car.
  

• I am dragging myself out of cosy Christmas living room and in to the dark to get to the gym for weight lifting and yoga.
  

I have watched lots of inspirational videos on YouTube too.

[Ellieboolou27]

Today I ended up eating some chocolate coins and s can of coke, I plan to go gym for an hour once kids in bed, because of the coins and coke I've only 400 left for dinner but I'm having a chicken breast burger and salad with some low fat fruit yog when I come home from gym.
Like losing said, don't let a bad moment / meal turn into a bad day, this is how slim people eat I think, by not pigging out just because they've had something fattening.

[LosingWeightFeelingGreat]

Well done Red! and Ellie! Very impressed with the gym going. Red I've been looking at weight lifting- it seems incredibly good for avoiding loose skin from what I have seen in YouTube. I was actually recently prescribed a short gym membership by my doctor for my depression but I haven't followed it through- I didn't feel ready as 3 months post C-Section and to be honest I just don't feel that confident around people at the moment! So I'm looking for home exercise and of course walking with the pram.

[LosingWeightFeelingGreat]

I have come in over my calories by an extra 200 BUT I was actually 280 under yesterday so trying not to be too disappointed

[RedMapleLeaf]

So you're averaging 40 calories under per day for the last two days

Yoga, weight lifting and 15k steps done.

[Ellieboolou27]

Well done losing don't be disappointed as if you hadn't tracked you'd probably be hundreds of calories over. I went over today but gym kind of cancels it out, although I only did 20mins on cross trainer and some weights / stretches.
red how many calories are u on mfp, mine was 1580 but I'm aiming for 1400 not very well atm