We have been separated nearly 3 years now. We have always maintained a fairly okay relationship, for dcs sake if nothing else.
He has been seeing a woman for a few weeks.
He stays here two or three nights a week in the spare room, to take dc to school as I leave for work at 6am.
This last week things have become strange between us. I've had no feelings for him for a long time and have definitely felt no kind of chemistry, but I've been ill this week and he's been very affectionate and caring (very out of character). We ended up in bed together.
Tonight is one of the nights he stays. We had a very intimate (for want of a better word) talk this evening and he very earnestly told me he'd never stopped loving me and the reason things had become strained between us and eventually led to our split was because we had unreasonable expectations of each other. (He was working very long hours and I was looking after a small baby alone... we never seemed to communicate effectively and this led to disagreements) He has never been the kind of man to express his feelings like this. He then went on to say how the dynamic of our relationship has now changed and who knew what the future held. Once again I got caught up in it all and we had sex.
Afterwards he asked if we could "cuddle", which again is very unlike him, but then says I never do this with new woman. He also said how he'd never cheated on anyone before and didn't expect to feel like this but didn't elaborate further.
My head is a total mess. Essentially I am now the other woman but i am a total shit and feel no kind of guilt or remorse about doing it. I think I'm still in love with him. The situation is so fucked up. I can't not have him stay because I've got no one to have dd, but I know that each time he's here I'm going to want him and it will keep happening. I'd never ask him to finish with NW but I can't keep messing around with someone else's bloke!
I don't really know what I hope to achieve from this thread. Feel free to call me every name under the sun because I'm disgusting and I deserve it. Maybe I just need to see people telling me that
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Shit. I've become my exes OW
Bollockswhathaveidone · 25/02/2016 00:07
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