I'm in a miserable marriage. We met 7 years ago and married 2 years later. Both of us were, I would say, vulnerable and a bit confused when we met, and thought the other one was solving all of our own problems. We now have 2 children and it is plain to see that not only are we completely mismatched but we really bring out the worst in each other. We fight a lot, he is passive aggressive and refuses to communicate with me, I get into a rage at him, he calls me crazy, I scream awful things at him...it goes on and on. Sometimes this happens in front of the children.
I know it sounds like we should go our separate ways but both of us are determined to stick it out for the sake of our kids. We both grew up in dysfunctional families and don't want to repeat that. We really do want them to have two loving parents but just can't figure it out.
Two nights ago he woke me up to whisper to me that he hated me. This was the last straw for me, this is the worst it has ever been, and all day yesterday I thought about divorce and escape and a fresh start. Last night he apologised to me and said his mood is all over the place and he can't get a grip on his feelings. To be honest I have also felt like I've hated him in the past and I have probably shouted it at him too. It just shocked me when he said it to me as he is usually so non communicative. It felt really final.
To list a few of our problems:
We don't communicate effectively. He says I talk/nag too much. He doesn't talk at all and withdraws, goes on phone obsessively, etc whether things are going well or badly.
We don't really enjoy sex together. I don't feel attracted to him and often have sex out of a feeling of duty, and also because he's nice to me the next day (I am aware how this sounds).
We don't agree on anything. Often one of us just gives in to the other to avoid fighting but it always ends up coming up again later on.
He uses things I say against me so I feel I have to watch everything I say.
I'm making him sound horrific - but I really think I am just as bad to him. This is what I mean by we bring out the worst in each other. In other relationships, friends and family etc, I am really very nice, quite funny, a great listener and a loyal friend! But these qualities seem to disappear the second I step in the house.
I feel miserable and lonely and like I'm on the verge of doing something I will really regret (not like harming myself, more like leaving or having an affair or something).
Please help. I will take any advice but please be gentle. I'm not in a good place.
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Stuck in a miserable marriage, desperate for help
Mamaka · 09/02/2016 21:08
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