Nc for obvious reasons.
I don't even know where to begin with the mess I have made.
I am not asking for sympathy, or even understanding but some guidance would be good if anyone can help.
I tricked the loveliest man in the world into believing my child was his. To begin with I did think the baby was his, a lot went on and we weren't really getting on, we lived apart and he wasn't happy about the pregnancy.
I did the first appointments etc alone and realised that baby wasn't his, but thought he was going to leave anyway so just kept it up.
The problem being that I fell head over heels in love with him when he had a change of heart early on and I let everything spiral out of control to the point I'm at now. He has looked after me, supported me and pretty much given up his life for me and all I have done is lie to him.
He told me he knows baby isn't his and he is willing to stay with me and raise baby if I tell him the truth.
The truth is I have no idea who baby's dad is, i got myself into a situation I couldn't control and was raped. It was my own fault I wasn't careful and didn't take the precut ions I usually would to prevent anything happening (I work in other people's homes)
I don't know how to say the words to my boyfriend. I don't know how to admit what happened and I'm scared to say the words out loud and have them real and out there. I'm scared what that will mean for my baby, I'm scared about it all.
I have made such a massive fuck up and I don't know how to fix it. Please tell me what to do
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I have made a total mess of it all
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