TR and MoM's house of (un)happy

[MerlinsBeard]

Seeing as there is no feeling depressed and i know for a fact that a few of us could do with support right now.

[TrinityRhino]

oh this is lovely
what a lovely idea MoM
how are you doing today?

It's been a 'good' day for me

[jrsqueak]

I will join. I agree the mental health section is sometimes offputting to post in as I feel silly cos I don't feel that bad but sometimes feel like i could just talk to somene about silly mundane things before things get too bad although I have posted before and had so much support ( which I don't get off family!!).

[TrinityRhino]

hi squeak
all are welcome here

[niche]

I would love to take a seat and unload my woes. I've felt so miserable for ages now I keep cancelling all my plans because of it, was supposed to be going to a music festival this weekend but told my mate to give my ticket away as just couldn't face all the happy faces (although I didn't confess the reason to her).

Oh I'm usually Piximon but I wondered if a name change would pick me up. Not working so far.

[TrinityRhino]

relax and unload at will

[CynicalCinders]

sits down in a peaceful corner

[jrsqueak]

Nixhe thats the way I feel at the min. Was under the community mental health nurse but she has discharged me as I dont need her . I have no one to talk to apart from my husband who to be fair is getting fed up with listening. My husbands family won't talk to me anymore. Am so fed up.

[TrinityRhino]

were you honest with your cpn?

she shouldn't have discharged you if you still need help
I think I'm about to get a cpn
I've been remembering my counselling apps too which is helping

I'm hoping to get my eldest daughter checked for any anziety/depressive issues that may have occured due to being cared for me by me at my darkest moments

its a positive thing but I;m scared

[MerlinsBeard]

jrsqueak - you put it much better than i could!

glad today has been good for you TR. Are you on meds? are they helping?

[TrinityRhino]

I'm on 40 mg of paroxetine at the moment
have been on and off meds for the last 8 years

things are better now than 3 years ago

I still have alot of bad bad days but things are clearer iyswim

[jrsqueak]

TR - I was honest but she always seemed to come on good days - but she said that I was a good mum and things will always occur to anyone to make them feel stretched.
I don't feel like a good mum or a good wife. I did feel like I was getting better at coping until a few weeks ago and for no reason feel how I was a year ago.
Just said what I felt MoM

[MerlinsBeard]

JRsqueak, will they come back if you tell them you need them to?

[jrsqueak]

i don't know - Have got a docs appt for next. so will see then. I haven't brushed my hair for weeks and hate myself. sorry - am rattling on now .
Am sure your dd will be fine TR although I worry that I am affecting my dc.

[PurplePillow]

How was dd2 after you got home?

B still weepy and it is really hard to not be able to make her feel better

Sorry for changing subject ladies

[TrinityRhino]

rattling on is what this thread is for
I dont shower
and have only been brushing my teeth as trillian has been teling me to

its a horrid place to be

[TrinityRhino]

sucks doesn't it PP
dd2 sobbed herself to sleep whilst I cuddled her

[PurplePillow]

Aww poor wee soul

You will have to get her one

[MerlinsBeard]

JR, it's ok to rattle on here! Glad you made a Drs appt.

am hiding from the world myself at mo - its horrid isn't it?

[jrsqueak]

I feel like I did a year ago. Dread being like this for the rest of my life. There is no particular reason for me to feel like this.
How is everyone else this morning?

[TrinityRhino]

well I am struggling this morning
both dd2 and gecko were up in the night
both have horrid snotty noses and slight temps
gecko was awake every 30 mins or so for hours
I feel like shit
how do I turn this morning around
I need to take them all to dd1 ENT app at 10.50
so far I'm eating crisps and smoking

[TrinityRhino]

anyone?

[sagacious]

Go have a shower trinity
Will make you feel more awake

[psychomum5]

dropping by to leave snuggly hugs.

I know you find it hard to see, but the simple fact of recognising that you are struggling, and are trying to lift yourselves back up, is absolute proof that youo are all fantastic mums, so please try hard to believe in yourselves a little more (and I do know how hard that is).

the mums who are crap are the ones who don;t care enough about their families to want to change, or even recognise that there is something wrong and makes steps to change. the fact that you are talking, encouraging each other, fret about your children.....well, tis obvious you are all great to me

tis a hard slog, and one that is up and down (and rocky on the way), but you are doing it.....all of you.

lots of hugs all round, and trinity, sweetheart, you will be fine today. if you can swear at me, you got sparks

[TrinityRhino]

thank psycho

how is the stump leg?

and sagacious, yes you are right
I will right now

[psychomum5]

sore, but lots better than it has been feeling-wise (IYGWIM)