On Friday I went for my first scan,I was 14 weeks. Was laughing and joking with dh and said to the sonographer "just let us know when you get the heartbeat!" and she shook her head.
I don't think I have ever felt such shock in my life. My world collapsed in on itself.
She told us that the baby had died week 8 or 9.
But I had had such severe morning sickness,up all night for wee's,backache,and even the bump.
I never imagined for one second that I had lost the baby.
I went into theatre crying and sobbing,woke up the same way asking for my baby.
I know this is a similar story to lots and lots of you.
But I am very lucky to already have 3 children. Although you would think that would make it easier,it doesn't. That was my precious baby whom I loved like my first.
I didn't mind puking my guts up am and pm as I consoled myself with the fact that this indicated a healthy pregnancy. I didn't know that wasn't true.
I am desperate to try again,but dh will need some convincing.
I feel I need to be pregnant again.
But even if he agrees and I get my periods back,as the doctor said,in about 3 weeks...I am wholly terrified that this will happen again.
Has anyone any experience of having 2/3 dc's no problem,then a mc...then a successfull pregnancy?
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AngryBeaver · 26/09/2011 18:38
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