Can’t do this

[Strugglingalone]

Curled in a ball crying, there is no one who will help, I don’t know what to do now

[BeachyUmbrella]

Are you at home? I'm listening. What can we do to help?

[BeachyUmbrella]

@Strugglingalone tell us if we can help? Talk through what's happening?

[noego]

Call Samaritans 116123. They will listen to you. Its a Freephone number

[Strugglingalone]

This doesn’t really say what I need it to say but my post will just be deleted again

Really struggling, I don’t know what to do anymore

[IsTheRainEverComingBack]

Call Samaritans. I’ve been where you are, and believe me there’s always another choice, and things can always change.

[Maximoo06]

Is there a friend or family you can call to talk too, try and calm yourself down by distracting your mind

[yawning801]

Can you write it in the notes section of your phone or something? It's best to just let it all out, and you don't need to struggle alone (as per your username). Can you message one of us to talk if you're scared of being deleted?

Also, are you safe right now? So many questions, I'm sorry!

[cushioncovers]

You're not alone. I've been where you are now. I thought I wouldn't make it but I did. Now fast forward several years and I'm doing great, just had my first holiday abroad for 7 years and I'm in a good place. You won't always be this way I promise you. Please get some help.

[PurpleDaisies]

Please seem help in real life-the Samaritans, a crisis team or a and e if you think you might hurt yourself

[Strugglingalone]

I’ve tried calling for help but I can’t make the words come out, it’s like my body’s protective defence however services then just think I’m wasting their time which couldn’t be any further from the truth

I don’t know what to do

[yawning801]

It couldn't be further from the truth, as you say. Even if it's just idle chit-chat, it sometimes helps to just have a conversation, to just know that you are not alone in the world.

[Wolfiefan]

Can someone call for you or take you to A and E.

[Maximoo06]

Yes just talk about anything and everything to distract your mind or actually physically go to a&e they will be able to see you are in a state and help.

[Strugglingalone]

I can’t even make small talk, I can’t make the words come out

So trapped

I have not had positive experiences at a+e in the past, I don’t think I can last till Monday

[yawning801]

Do you have someone to come and sit with you? Sometimes a hug from a fiend is the best thing (speaking as a non-huggy person).

[yawning801]

A friend! Not a fiend! A fiend is the last thing you need!

[yawning801]

Can you tell us about yourself to fill some time? Obviously not personal stuff, but hobbies etc?

[Maximoo06]

Or read a book watch a film practice some mindfulness I know it's hard to do all these things when you feel like this. But these feelings will not last forever

[Wolfiefan]

If you can’t wait you need to contact someone tonight or tomorrow. You are clearly suffering but it won’t get better until you make the first step.

[mumprincess12]

Anyone at all you can talk to in real life - can you make an excuse to see someone? You need to borrow something or you've lost something or you need some help with something trivial. Just please don't be alone xx

[tissuebox]

Can you message one of us with what you would put on the thread if it wouldn’t be deleted?

[FlissMumsnet]

Hello Strugglingalone

We hope you don't mind, but when threads like this one are flagged up to us we usually add a link to our Mental Health resources - here. You can also go to the Samaritans' website here, or email them on [email protected]. Given how you're feeling, it might work for you as you can write your thoughts down rather than having to speak them aloud.

Support from other Mumsnetters is great and we really hope you will be able to take some comfort from your fellow posters, but as other MNers will tell you, it's really a good idea to seek RL help and support as well.

We really hope things take a turn for the better very soon

[Strugglingalone]

There isn’t really anyone in real life, I am nuturally shy so distance myself from people
I’ve tried making the first step but just keep being fobbed off, don’t know what to do anymore

[Wolfiefan]

If you make it clear to medical professionals that you feel like committing suicide and aren’t coping with basic tasks then you will get help.
Can you write down what you want to say?

[Kittykat93]

No one can advise much more than for you to speak to someone op. You really must overcome your fears just enough to pick up the phone and tell someone how you feel, or even email, text, whatever. Samaritans, a&e, mental health charities, nhs direct, literally anyone.

You don't have to carry on like this, you owe it to yourself to pluck up the courage to get yourself some help