A few weeks ago I started a thread in AIBU (I know). The terminology I used was taken in the wrong context, and I was called all sorts of names. I tried defending myself and it got worse, and the thread was eventually deleted.
It caused all my anxiety to come flooding back, awful ocd thoughts. It was a genuine mistake on my part, and my reaction to feel totally worthless about myself, feel completely self doubt about my morals and values and how I see myself as a person.
I know those people don't know me. They just read a stupid comment that I didn't think about properly before I posted
I did really well with counselling over the past two years, until it finished for various reasons. I just wanted to speak to my counsellor so she could reassure me that I wasn't this person that the commenters attributed to me.
As an example, it was as if I had made an off the cuff comment about people being gay, and being accused of being homophobic. (It wasn't that, just don't want to out myself, quite happy for people to be any sexuality, as long as they are happy with mine)
I have been telling myself I am not that person they accused me of being, I have never been that person, I will never be that person. The negative thoughts of reading those 120 posters saying I was, is stronger though.
Thank you for reading, and please don't attack me for trying to reach out.
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Blueisthemagicnumber · 23/08/2016 20:14
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