I'm pretty sure I'm bi-polar.
I have practically destroyed my family. Both my mother and DH bankrupt after my spending got out of control and me refusing to acknowledge a problem.
I have controlled DH so much he felt it necessary to have an affair to regain some control in his life.
He recognises what he did was wrong but my behaviour is out of control.
My mum has ended all contact with me recently and I haven't spoken to my dad in years.
I went through a period of promiscuity during university which lasted 6 months or so and travelled a lot, to the point that I barely scraped my degree.
I have a feeling that I literally know everything, I'm better than everyone else and I can do anything if I want to.
From reading up on the condition it would seem I am mainly manic. But also paranoid and very anxious.
What do I do next?!
I feel as if I go to the doctor they will laugh at me and think I am making an excuse for my awful behaviour.
I haven't mentioned to my husband either as we are semi separated and he is currently not living with me.
I have 3 small children which I manage well with work but life is very stressful. Being manic most of the time kind of helps me look after the kids as I don't get much sleep.
What to do next...?
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Pretty sure I am Bi-Polar. What next?
weakestlink · 26/10/2014 06:50
like the silverypussycat says, your GP should refer you for assessment without laughing (why would they laugh? 
)
mon-fri you could phone what was the manic depression fellowship 020 7931 6480 and talk things over with them, they are really helpful, have you visited the website yet? lots of more nationally relevant info bipolaruk.org.uk than on the wider web which doesn't always recognise the same routes to diagnosis and treatment
but do have a think about what you'd want from a diagnosis - validation, education, medication, some kind of talking therapy/coping strategies?
it makes sense, I somewhat conveniently forget everything pretty much - even how it feels to be suicidal even though that's how things generally end up 
hope you get an appointment and a swift referral for assessment, I didn't go that route so am not sure how long it takes (I was in a hospital out of area when they first mentioned bipolar, then I was moved to another hospital and the consultant spent quite a long time deliberating over what was wrong and ever since then everyone has always assumed he was right) do you have the option of seeing someone privately, it might speed things up?
What does DH think? And is the move away with him?
Bipolar can exist together with intelligence, you know 
, even when stable.
Wahey! You were not being delusional about your impressive intellect . The Psychiatrist might be wrong though....and he might not be.
In the UK, Psychiatrists use the ICD 10 (link) to diagnose mental health issues. Bipolar is under F31, if you're interested.
This stood out to me:
"I have a feeling that I literally know everything, I'm better than everyone else and I can do anything if I want to."
In my experience this is the thought process of someone who is manic, or grandiose/narcissistic. It sounds like he was saying you might have grandiose tendencies. The term narcissism has negative connotations on this board as people use it when talking about in laws or other people they don't like! But everyone is a bit of a narcissist, good people and mean ones. Article on NPD - not saying you have it of course!.
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