I am going mad! I have suffered from severe anxiety for over 6 years now. I get the heart racing/palpatations, butterflies in stomach, lightheadedness, nausea, headaches, shakiness, jelly legs, numbness in hands/feet, muscle tremors, intrusive thoughts, hyper sensitivity to noise etc DAY IN DAY OUT. I have no idea what it feels like to feel 'normal' any more. I am a wreck. I have had tests, scans, seen consultants and it is all in my head. There is nothing medically wrong with me.
I know what I need to recover and that is PEACE to allow my frazzled nervous system to cool down and heal but with 4 DCs, a mountain of debt, living in temporary council housing, problems with 2 DCs at school, inability to find a job and lack of sleep due to DC4, that is bloody IMPOSSIBLE! I feel like I am never going to recover, so I may as well just kill myself instead (too scared to even do that, Ha). I carry on and do all that I need to do to run the house and look after the DCs because I have to but it feels like I am wading through mud. DH is supportive but losing patience.
I have asked my psychologist if I could be admitted to a hospital as I feel like a nutter and of course she said NO, I am not that bad apparently. I also don't need any more CBT, I need to recover myself rather than using CBT as a crutch . Can't take ADs as they make me feel worse.
Why can't I just have a month of intensive bloody counselling in a hospital so I can start feeling normal? I have no chance of going away for a holiday and no one to stay with here. I am a shadow of the person I used to be (and who I know is buried inside me still), I feel like I will never get back to being her again .
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ReallyReallyNeedABreak · 05/10/2011 09:49
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