I hate this time of year, i love x-mas but because of my anxiety around illness christmas allways gets ruined . I am so saired of the dd's getting sick and even more me getting sick that i lay awake at night incase one of them vomits.
Both dd's are just getting over chicken pox and dd2 has just had a vomiting bug/virus, 2 days ago i came down with it but from the help of anti-sickness medication i have not been sick (just the other syptoms), this morning i ran out of my medication and had to beg my suregery to put a presription through for me straight away as i was shaking with fear at the thought of vomiting. I have shut myself upstairs for 2 days as i am so worried dd1 will get it and it will ruin x-mas for her, tomorrow i have to come downstairs to look after the dd's as my husband is back to work. I havn't eaten for 6 days (sinse dd2 came down with the bug) appart from 1 peice of toast, i don't feel like eating, i'm not sure if this is due to the bug or my anxiety.
I'm also worried that my dd's will catch something at school, i have taken dd2 out of school because her amune system is so lo, she just got over the bug and she can not handle all the x-mas things at school (she has ASD), Dd1 has 3 days left at school and i cant wait to have her home away from all the bugs at school.
I feel like i'm loosing my mind and i don't feel like im coping, if dd1 comes down with anything i don't know how i will keep it together. Dh has been a great help looking after dd1 when dd2 and i have been unwell but it feels like i'm on my own when it comes to looking after sick dd's.
I am seeing a counceller and my next appointment is on friday, i have had CBT, hypnotherapy and exposure therapy but i cant beat this .
I don't know where to go from here, it feels like its taking over my whole life, i want to look forward to spending x-mas with dh and the girls but i don't know if i can.
Sorry for the long post. Just hoped someone would understand how i am feeling.
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Struggling to cope with this anxiety :(
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Marne · 14/12/2010 19:27
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