I'm 34. Diagnosed as high functioning aspergers years ago but try not to tell people. I hold down a responsible career. I have no debts. I'm doing ok.
But I am sick and tired, exhausted even, of pretending to be normal.
I don't like going on nights outs as I much prefer to spend saturday night on the sofa, either by myself or with ONE other person - warm, cosy, safe ... no pressure to dance, no pressure to stay looking nice ... just being me.
I don't like being in crowded areas. It stresses me out. I don't want to go shopping. I don't want to go and watch the comedian and be pushed and shoved around by other people!!
I don't like socialising in groups. I have nothing to say and am not interested in anything THEY have to say so what's the point in me being there?? leave me out of it!
But it's getting so difficult, I'm becomming less tolerant. I have many failed relationships as I have no interest in compromise of "seeing his point of view" etc etc ... I try but I don't get it!
How can anyone LIKE ready salted crisps?? I don't understand - because I don't like them. I wind myself into a state of annoyance over stuff like this because I just don't understand. Trying to understand makes me annoyed!
Recently DP was concerned that my reclusive behavior might come across as stand-offish to our friends so he told them my 'issues'. Now they don't talk to me - they talk through DP and treat me like I'm severely mentally disabled.
As it stands, I'm currently considering leaving DP because I can't be arsed pretending any longer. AIBU to just, for once, do what I want to do and be who I really am even though it would upset so many people? How can I continue pretending??
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I'm on the autistic spectrum and I'm sick of pretending I'm not
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GreenPhone · 12/07/2015 19:00
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