I had my dd 4 1/2 months ago and still feel haunted by the birth. I feel physically sick if I think back to any part of it including the recovery afterwards.
I had a relatively simple pregnancy with no complications so remained very positive about the whole experience and was very much at ease about child birth. Do not get Wrong I was not excited about delivery just not nervous at the same time. Both my DM and DGM had straight forward births so I think I expected a similar experience and didn't really pay attention to people I suspected of 'scaremongering'.
I had a loosely written birth plan as I was aware things don't always go to plan. My actual labour and birth were in my eyes awful, nothing was what I even imagined, I just felt like an inconvenience in the hospital. I went into labour 200 miles from home so gave birth in a totally different hospital to what I planned. Without going into every detail it was just truly horrible.
I feel I may have watched far too much obem where the ladies are settled into a room with their partners for their labour, whereas I was told to keep the noise down and tret like I was being a nuisance. They also don't show you how horrendous recovery is and what a miserable time it is, from sore stitches to piles to constipation . I truly feel like I will never be able to go through that experience again, I'm yet to pluck up the courage to even be intimate again let alone give birth.
Aibu to think I will never be able to psychologically get through 9 months knowing I could have a similar experience or face another dreaded episitomy. I'm panicking already and I have several years yet. How long did It take you all to feel at ease again after childbirth?
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To be petrified at the thought of giving birth ever again.
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Billygoats · 27/03/2014 21:06
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