I need to cut this down because it would just go on and on.
My best friend passed away 7 years ago. I still Facebook message his page. Just silly little things. Life quote, photos, saying how much I miss him. The whole context of chatting with him is because I don't have to give context. I don't have to think about how I phrase things or what I say, I just send them. I miss him and I wish he was still alive.
My partner decided to read through all the messages. Going back years and years here and is now incredibly angry with me because years ago I called my friend my soulmate. I explained to him I never was with my friend in that way and I never would have. I just meant our sounds were connected. My partner then said about me saying 'I miss him, I feel like I've lost out' and how this means that I'm unhappy with my life now and I'm unhappy with my partner. This again was so long ago it has nothing to do with my life now. I've reassured as much as I can. Honestly. I can reassure till I'm blue in the face. I have explained to him that my friend is dead. He won't read these and if by some amazing miracle he does then I don't need to give context, he will know what I'm talking about. He will see everything. But my partner doesn't get that. I've tried to explain that when we speak to people who are alive we need to think of context and explanation and understanding but when there is literally no recipient I don't have to so it's freeing because I don't have to explain myself and then in hindsight I'm quite hurt that my partner has gone through all of this. I can understand interest. I can understand that little thought in your head to look and I've made sure I have no password to make that possible but holding me in his bad books for speak to my dead friend and making me have to explain every damn message for the last seven years has really rubbed me the wrong way. AIBU?
30 days only
He's dead so why is my partner so angry
ThisIsMyNameOkay · 15/04/2024 09:29
PoppingTomorrow · 15/04/2024 09:31
I can understand why your partner finds it hurtful to hear that you think another man was your soul mate, especially one that you are actively communicating with (even if the recipient is dead).
He is occupying emotional energy and there's an implication that he's filling a gap left by your OH.
Serencwtch · 15/04/2024 09:36
I can see where both of you are coming from but I would be very uncomfortable with that too. Why are you not able to say these things to your partner?
It is strange to be messaging a Facebook page of someone who has passed away that long ago. Is it better to keep a journal/diary where you can record your private thoughts that way.
JamesPringle · 15/04/2024 09:37
I wouldn't want to be in a relationship with someone who considered someone else their soulmate.
BaconCozzers · 15/04/2024 09:40
What's the timeline here op? How long have you been with your partner? Did he know your friend?
ThisIsMyNameOkay · 15/04/2024 09:42
This was sent way before I met my partner. I sent that 5 years ago and my partner and I have been together 2 years.
Yes it's a long time to still be talking to my deceased friend but he was like my brother. Like family, hence why I felt connected. He has bone cancer all his life. Finally managed to get into remission for one darn year and then a brain tumour just took him within months. I still havent healed from that
JamesPringle · 15/04/2024 09:37
I wouldn't want to be in a relationship with someone who considered someone else their soulmate.
WhingeInTheWillows · 15/04/2024 09:43
I think it’s weird that he’s bothered by it. To me it’s a form of talking to yourself, thinking things over, remembering your friend. Would your partner be bothered if it was a female?
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Wishimaywishimight · 15/04/2024 09:49
I think 'soulmate' is assumed to be a romantic notion but in my view it is not necessarily so.
OP, I can totally sympathise. My best and oldest friend of more than 30 years passed away very suddenly a few years ago. I was utterly devastated and miss him still every single day.
In my situation, my friend was gay so perhaps that influenced my DH's view of the friendship in that he knew of course that there was never any romantic intent on either side. DH is completely understanding and sympathetic to my loss. He himself sometimes says "oh, X would really love that" or "I know what X would say to that or "you really need X here to enjoy this". He knew we had a wonderful bond, a shared humour that not everyone gets and he knows I still miss my friend. It helps that DH was very fond of my friend also, he came to stay with us from time to time, all 3 of us went to dinner etc.
I love and adore my DH, there is absolutely nothing missing from our relationship. I didn't need my friend's friendship but I did enjoy it and felt privileged that such an amazing person chose me as his best friend - he was a really special person.
OP, I think you are doing nothing wrong in 'speaking' to your friend in whatever way helps you. For me, I got a notebook and I wrote in it from time to time (a diary I suppose) as though I were speaking to my friend. I told DH when I got it what the reason for it was an he thought it was a good idea, that I could say things 'to' my friend in a way that helped me.
In summary, I think your DH is being unkind and unfair. Grief is so hard, I think it is ok for you to deal with it in the way that best helps soothe your mind.
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