I feel glum in my marriage. We've been married for a couple of years, and this has been an almost constant feeling.
I do often enjoy things in the moment though. So I enjoy, for example, eating nice food or visiting a new place, including when my husband is with me. I enjoy seeing my friends and family.
But I have this feeling of glumness in the background, which resurfaces when I'm not distracted by something else, and if in start thinking about the future. If I think about making our garden nice, which is a project I'd normally enjoy, i think 'What's the point, because I'd mainly sit in it with my husband', and the thought of this fills me with a kind of heaviness.
Is this just part of life, and is it a common feeling? Now that I'm married, other possible lives have been cut off, so I'm having to face the reality that 'this is it'.
I sometimes don't know if it's a problem with the marriage, or a problem with me.
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Feeling glum in my marriage, 2 years in. Is this feeling common?
Rhubardy · 11/04/2024 13:47
Humanunkind · 17/04/2024 10:34
I'm another one who was you @Rhubardy , everything was great until we were married (first date to wedding was nine months) then he started showing his true colours. In between all the true colours were times of fun and me thinking how great it was that it was over and we'd be fine now because he was back to normal ... until the next time. 30 years later he left me for his next victim, thank God. Not only were the good memories tainted with unhappiness I could now see they were one of the tools that kept me with him.
Please do not be me, you can see already that things aren't right. Please get some RL support in building your strength and keeping yourself safe. Women's Aid are a great support.
Please be careful about sharing how you feel with your husband because he may well use this against you in an emotionally abusive way. Or punish you. I don't know how bad things are yet but please be very careful
PollySolo · 17/04/2024 10:36
Surely you can see that first date to wedding is waaay too fast, though? At nine months you’re still auditioning one another!
Humanunkind · 17/04/2024 10:34
I'm another one who was you @Rhubardy , everything was great until we were married (first date to wedding was nine months) then he started showing his true colours. In between all the true colours were times of fun and me thinking how great it was that it was over and we'd be fine now because he was back to normal ... until the next time. 30 years later he left me for his next victim, thank God. Not only were the good memories tainted with unhappiness I could now see they were one of the tools that kept me with him.
Please do not be me, you can see already that things aren't right. Please get some RL support in building your strength and keeping yourself safe. Women's Aid are a great support.
Please be careful about sharing how you feel with your husband because he may well use this against you in an emotionally abusive way. Or punish you. I don't know how bad things are yet but please be very careful
Seaoftroubles · 17/04/2024 10:19
Rhubardy, if the unkind things he did to you and others go against your core values then this will be difficult to overcome.
Have you raised it with him and told him how you feel?
Rhubardy · 19/04/2024 23:37
Thanks @Seaoftroubles . Yes I have raised the unkind things, several times, but he just doesn't see why I'm bothered by them and says I'm overreacting and he gets annoyed.
Seaoftroubles · 17/04/2024 10:19
Rhubardy, if the unkind things he did to you and others go against your core values then this will be difficult to overcome.
Have you raised it with him and told him how you feel?
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