Hello, I'm posting on here for advice as I'm feeling incredibly lost and hurt after I found messages on my husband's phone after he crashed out after a drunken night out with his phone on his lap. The messages were along the lines of 'I want to fall into your arms' and 'hardest night ever not being able to message you' It's three weeks since that night and I'm still so hurt and angry, I have no idea how to move on from this. The girl was his ex from when he was in his early 20s (we've been together for 16 years) and he said he was feeling nostalgic and she was telling him how she never got over him and he says he just got a bit keen on the attention and it felt exciting and an ego massage when life was a bit boring. But then I found out he had been planning to meet up with her for a walk and to catch up whilst I was at my parents the following week after I found the messages. He told me this as presumed I had seen it on his phone when I found the messages. He told me he would never have done anything and just wanted to catch up and the plans were made before the messages became less innocent. He hasn't seen her since before we met and never saw her during these messages conversations. He has a really good job and I work as a dinner lady so I can be there for our son and support him with the parenting and house etc as he has the ‘big job’. I feel completely alone and trapped as I can't get past this but I have nowhere to go and no money to do it with as I would be have nothing without him and life would have to change significantly for our child, both emotionally and financially. The other night I felt like I was making progress on feeling less hurt and then he told me more about this girl and that she was earning similar money to him and had done so well with her career considering she wasn't from a wealthy background (he and the girl are both from a working class area, I'm from a very middle class background) and then proceeded to say how I'd never really had a career as such and how I'd never earned much etc. I couldn't believe the insensitivity of this after what we were trying to overcome. It made me feel like I was unattractive to him on every level. I feel so alone and am having to struggle on to pretend to my son that all is fine which is exhausting and lonely. I’ve not told a soul as I would hate anything to somehow be overheard by our child. Any advice hugely appreciated x
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