My dc's would have a dad that is in their lives. There would be 2 incomes coming into the household. I would be less exhausted being both parents. My granddaughter would have a granddad.
I thought I didn't love him. I actually had no feelings. I had difficult pregnancies and births. Put on lots of weight. He was never abusive. He worked hard. I was just so selfish in making that decision. Did I think the grass was greener, no clue. If I was the person I am today, I would have helped myself, worked through the marriage as no marriage is perfect.
It's been 10 years and in that 10 years it's been exhausting. Physically and mentally. I decided to go back to school to become a nurse. To become financially stable. All the way through telling myself it's all going to be ok. It was so so difficult as a single parent but I made it through. He moved on quickly and he saw the dc's less and less. These days it's hardly ever. They haven't even been to his house. He's never taken them on holiday or had them over for Christmas.
What I can't seem to move on from, is the fact I made a selfish decision and it's backfired on myself and my dc's. I have always over compensated to ensure they were ok and didn't miss out. Is this my karma? Just needed someone to talk to, I don't have family. Always appreciated support here.
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I made the decision (whilst struggling with postnatal depression) to end my marriage 10 years ago. He then became almost non existent in dc's lives. If I'd stayed...
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