I've posted loads on here over last 4 years, under various names. I was in what I believed to be an emotionally abusive marriage so I ended it 2 years ago. We're now divorced and I've seen other people since. We have 2 young dc.
But I just cannot move on. I'm not sure that I'm still in love with him exactly but I care very much about him, I still want him to be a part of my life, and I would love for our family to be back together. I've had a 9 month relationship in the last year, half of that time I spent wishing I was with my ex. I went on a trip recently with the guy I've been seeing and ended up in hospital - the only person I wanted with me was my ex. Sometimes I wonder if the world were ending or if I were dying what I would do, and the answer is always spend those last hours with him and our kids.
I don't miss him day to day, and I'd certainly never live with him again. It was very difficult being married to him. We've tried to maintain a friendship but he's very up and down and often says he still loves me and has big regrets about how he was. But I'm very aware that he hasn't changed as a person. Nothing would be different. So I'm stuck in limbo. My sister's advice was to block all contact except regarding our dc but I won't do that. She suggested not having him in the house but I won't do that either. I don't know what to do
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Can't and won't move on from my ex
Weenabix · 11/09/2019 13:58
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