It feels like a long story so I will try and keep it short.
I have been best friends with someone for 15 years, we have supported each other through very tough times.
We have always been with other people but I think we probably always knew that we cared very deeply for each other.
I was in a very abusive relationship for 11 of those years. And he too is in a marriage with a child with a serious alcoholic.
Last year we admitted that our feelings were more, it made me realise I had to get out of my relationship (that is a whole thread in itself, emotionally, verbally, some violence, always the threat of violence)
I left, it was incredibly traumatic and I suppose I truly believed that myself and my friend would end up together having suffered extremely damaging realtionships in our own way.
We both started counselling which has been very helpful. We both have toxic narcissist parents which probably contributed to us ending up in such destructive relationships.
I tried to help him to see that being with someone who is a severe alcoholic and is very controlling and abusive was not healthy for him or his child.
He can't leave his DC, for many reasons mainly fear of her taking DC away and her generally being very crazy and controlling (this is something that all of his friends have know for years, he is due to her completely isolated from most people in his life)
Anyway I (am trying) to understand that he feels he has to make this choice.
But I am worried for him, I miss his friendship and for what I thought we could have together, I fear that he'll stick this for years and it will destroy him.
Mainly I miss him, I know it's his choice and I have to go my own way and move on I am just finding it incredibly hard.
I also know life isn't black and white, I just can't believe that it's all ended up like this.
Sorry for such a long post.
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Tryingfailingagain · 22/12/2016 19:57
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