Secret that sounds like a massive struggle. I think, as someone said earlier, that crushes sort of have a shelf-life anyway - so I guess the question is whether being around her would extend that and whether or not you can deal with that. If it is going to be hard to separate friendship from your feelings without eventually clueing her into them (which presumably is not on the cards) then perhaps distance would be a good idea...but how you do that when you are working together I don't know. I'm sorry, that's not very helpful - I just wish I could help more. I'm glad it's having a positive effect on your marriage though - that's something to hold on to!
My course is going to be so exciting - we've only had induction week so far, so a lot of gubbins about the way the university does things, and I'm looking forward to actually getting going with it all! I have so far chickened out of joining the LGBTQ+ society though. I'm not really cut out for fancy dress bar crawls any more and certainly don't want to come out anywhere until I know for sure - although I don't know if I'll be able to answer that without actually having a relationship with a woman - and will I be able to do that without actually actively seeking out situations like that?! Catch-22.... Thankfully I have calmed down about my WIQ. Feelings still there but I am not too worried about it all now, probably because I have something to distract me!
Psykhe I've been thinking about your dilemma. How do you think he would react if you told him? I don't know how old he is, but I reckon often kids respond well to being talked to directly and treated in a more adult way in that respect. Could you do that with him? Sit down and enter into a discussion about it? As you say, he might have an idea anyway and it would probably be better to be up front with him rather than him find out or guess. But only you know how he would react and whether he would respond well to that. Best of luck.