I'm back, it's worse, I need MN. Please.

[Sc00byD0]

I posted exactly a year ago - hadn't realised that fact until I just reread last years post. Which is here (hopefully, I'm on my iPad) [[http://www.mumsnet.com/Talk/relationships/1680534-Is-he-depressed-jekyll-and-hyde-or-just-an-arse]

I'm ashamed I did nothing, it got better for a time. It's now getting worse and worse. Nothing's changed, it's worse, I hate my life, I can't take any more. Tonight has been the last straw. The ONS is the cause of all our issues apparently. As I said on my original post, I am absolutely not proud of that behaviour, but it was 21 years ago. The name calling tonight towards me and my parents has been horrendous. I've been in bed since 815 just to get away from him. He keeps coming up and shouting at me. DCs are in their bedrooms close by. When he goes back downstairs he

I need to get out, I just know it's going to be so difficult. Tried to sell the house last year for a new start (oh the irony) but unfortunately we are blighted by the governments desire for a high speed railway.

I also have had health issues this year, and am under hospital referral at present. I'm fit to work, but limited in some things I'm able to do. This isn't helping my thinking at the moment. I'm scared.

I know I will be told you told me so, but I really would genuinely welcome some support right now. I'm just feeling broken.

[Sc00byD0]

Just home, good time out with DD, have walked in and h has walked straight out to the pub. DS seems to have had a good day though with h. About to now cook dinner for DCs and me.

I haven't time now to refer to everyone, but will read properly later, and read the link (thanks AF), and start prepping papers and finance info. I am good at project planning,so this my next very important one.

[AnyFucker]

Yep, treat it as a project

Entitled "Getting my life back"