"D"h on flirt/affair websites

[stfbh]

I found out a few hours ago, he said he had deregistered from his chat app and email account and had just been talking to people. I got into his email and it's all flirt/sexy chat stuff. Apparently he realised it was wrong and didn't do anything just signed up to the sites.

I want to throw him out, I'm so angry. He lied and denied until I got into his email account. Says he thought about doing stuff then realised he was wrong. Like I can believe that when he lied about the chat app and email account! Apparently he didn't want me to find out as he hadn't gone any further and had stopped... also admitted he didn't want to be found out. I told him it's cheating as far as I'm concerned. This is it, isn't it?

[FrancescaBell]

Sorry, but I think he will always resort to these quick fixes when he 'feels a bit down'. When a man's actually looking to be unfaithful, he really isn't worth a light.

[stfbh]

NandH I'm not sure what help there is, I've seen a really good post by Olgaga with details for contacts and financial assistance when splitting, not sure if anyone can find it and post?

Dropped DD off at mum's last night and he sat reading the nursery information from our visit this week. Thought he was doing his ostrich impression but he apologised and reiterated that it was stupid, he was an idiot and hadn't gone further than looking at people.

I told him that he couldn't expect me to believe that and it couldn't be proven either way. He agreed to give me access to everything but I told him that as far as I was concerned, I just haven't decided when it would be best for him to leave. So he said what was the point in me looking and my response was that I wanted to know.

His phone records are clean, checked it all including unbilled stuff up to a few days ago. Basically, everything supports his story. But I'm well aware that there might be things I haven't found.

It's exhausting, I feel like crying and screaming at him. I didn't shout but made my feelings clear.


NandH I'm worried if he stays that he'll do it again, why not if there are no consequences? Basic decency should be enough but obviously not. This is a bad time too, busy with work, DD's birthday and I've got an important exam to take. I need him out though, so I can clear my head. DD is a complete Daddy's girl so it will be difficult, she won't be happy.

[MissStrawberry]

NandH - and? Many of us have more than 2 failed relationship!! There isn't a limit and there is no law to stay you have to stay with someone who abuses you because you already left someone else!

You get ONE life. Do not waste it with this twat and remember what you live is what your children learn.

[NandH]

Missstrawberry, its probably also because this is my second massively screwed up relationship aswell.

Stfbh, I have no money of my own, I'm a sahm, I had the money to move dc's and set again I would have. I just don't want you being spun a few lines like 'I'm so sorry it won't happen again', they are not sorry, they grovel for a week then start it all up again, in my case he went onto physically cheating. The online stuff is enough to completely lose trust in your dh, if you do stay with him put your guard up and keep your eyes peeled :) I honestly think once they know they've gotten away with it once they will do it again. Sorry for hijacking, didn't mean too.

[Ezio]

NandH, its better to be alone in a cesspit full of shit, than with a man who gave you HERPES.

Seriously, leave the dirty bastard, before he gives you something worse.

And do you know what has made so fucking angry for you.

Herpes can kill newborn babies.

[stfbh]

that your family won't help. What do you need to move? Or can you get him to leave?

[MissStrawberry]

FFS it is your family who said that .

[MissStrawberry]

Not fair enough at all but she is no friend to you. Are you seriously saying you are going to waste your life with this twat because you made a wrong decision (even if made in good faith)?

Get the hell out. You can get help to move and get your own place, surely.

[NandH]

Can't, I don't have friends anymore, I don't have old friends my phone numbers, I'm not on social networking sites and my family told me to basically lump it because I made the decision to move away, fair enough :)

I just hope telling my story to women like you who are going through the very similar first stages of utter Crap that I did helps you to see there's not always light at the end of the tunnel if you decide to stay with the man that causes you this hurt/grief/pain/upset.

[AnyFucker]

Well done for not going down the "I wasn't good enough for him" route

You are far too good for this prick

[stfbh]

NandH Oh God, that's awful, can you get help to leave from friends/family back home?

[MissStrawberry]

NandH - no reason you can't get the hell out of there now.

[stfbh]

I have felt there was something wrong for a while, ironically that's what we were discussing last night before I found out. Getting him to talk about his feelings is like getting blood from a stone.

Basically he's hit all the red flags, withdrawn from me after we started ttc another child, denied anything was wrong, said he was depressed, having a MLC...

Last night he said he felt something was wrong in his life and he didn't know what it was. He's been looking into further education and a career change. Apparently he's had days where he's really happy and thinks he's crazy for doubting us and others where he wants to escape from it all. He wanted to do more as a family and a couple.

As far as I was concerned, everything was great until after we started ttc as he physically withdrew.

We get every Friday night childfree and usually spend evenings together... in short the problem is with him. He thought the online chat would make him feel better (apparently it didn't ) and stuff his wife and daughter.

[NandH]

Ekkk, right, I dunno where to start :( first, I'm so sorry! I know how you feel, my dp done this to me back in Feb, I found out on valentines day, which was also 10 days after I gave birth to our son.

I'm still with this man, he's since given me herpes, I'm still with him now, mainly because we moved away and I dont have any friends anymore.

My only advise to you is if you can then leave, start a fresh....wish I did :(

[Flowers]

[MissStrawberry]

Sometimes people do things because they want too and not because there is anything wrong with the relationship they are in. They are just idiots.

[Jan45]

AnyFucker: could be, but it's not always as clear cut as that, I've been in the exact same situation as the OP and I decided to stay with my partner, we weren't married or living together at the time and our relationship was not working when this happened.

I'm not making excuses, I was hurt, shocked and very angry but our relationship had a lot of issues that neither of us was addressing and I was definitely off in another direction at the time and not spending much time with him - again, not an excuse for him to do that to me but I wasn't willing to give up on us, we since moved in together.

[AnyFucker]

It's far more likely there was absolutely nothing wrong with your relationship at all

Except that one of you is a selfish, thrill seeking, deceitful little boy who thought he wasn't getting enough attention

[Jan45]

It's up to you if you want to end your marriage over this but maybe you want to find out why he did it, it would indicate to me that there is something seriously wrong in the relationship in the first place. You could sit down together in peace and try and find out why he felt the need to do this and risk everything? He certainly can't expect you to act normal like nothing is wrong and will now have to prove to you that it is you that he wants and only you. If he hasn't actually met anyone, in my book he hasn't actually cheated - he's cruised but still done a really shitty thing to you.

[MissStrawberry]

YOU haven't let your DD down.

HE has.

[stfbh]

I'm so sorry for anyone else going through this, I just want to fall apart but I can't, DD needs me to be strong.

He knew it was wrong, I'm guessing if he even thought about what would happen if I found out, he expected me to let it blow over. He's keeping his head down and I'm wondering whether to get him to leave tonight or Monday. He probably thinks we'll argue for a while then carry on. Cos he didn't actually cheat although that may have been desperation talking.

He said he'd deregistered so couldn't show me the email account so I took his phone and got the password reset then saw the chat site emails. He was telling me to stop as he had stopped, wasn't going to do it again and he didn't want me to be hurt.

I told him it didn't matter if he did just sign up then stop or just chat or further - it's still cheating. And the loss of trust. The emails started last month, think late on, but he added the woman on the chat app on 10th Aug. His mobile bill is online, so I could make him show me it.

I think our mums will be furious with him. They have both been cheated on and raised us as single parents with dads who fucked off. I feel like an idiot and I'm letting DD down no matter what I do. I know that it's his fault but I feel awful.


Apparently he wouldn't leave me if it was the other way round, called bullshit on that.


alphacourse I will have a look at your thread, thank you. I can't understand why anyone would do this.

Sorry for the length and if it's disjointed, I'm using my phone to post.

[alphacourse]

Can you look at his phone bill? How long has he been using the sites for? I am a few months down the line from the exact same thing. God it hurts doesn't it? (((Hugs)))

[alphacourse]

NOBODY will think you are over reacting. The shock is likely to make you UNDER react if anything.

[Ezio]

His secrecy is probably a clue as to what hes been doing.

[MissStrawberry]

He sounds seriously stupid.

Realised it was wrong . Why did he not know that before he started?

You weren't supposed to find out so if you fuck the hunky neighbour that is okay as he wasn't meant to find out?

If you want to kick him out over this, then do so. It doesn't matter if anyone else thinks you are over reacting, this is your relationship and no one elses.

[alphacourse]

You might want to check out my thread....