Hi. I started spotting 8 days ago and was worried about lack of symptoms. EPU scan showed that although I was nearly 9 weeks with my dates, I was only measuring 6 weeks and there was no heartbeat. I was to come for another scan in 6 days to confirm there had been no growth.
Over the weekend after the scan, I had so much pain, like a very bad period but also with painful contractions which hurt in my back and my tummy. I started bleeding heavily, although not worryingly heavy. I never flooded, gushed etc which I sometimes get on the first day of a period. I have passed many clots, although never the size you would expect the sac to be. My second scan on Wednesday showed a piece of tissue remained, measuring about 2cm, but then at a change of angle with the internal scan, there was the sac, still in there. It looked to be collapsing in on itself compared to the first scan, in which I could also see the tiny embryo.
Midwife was amazing and talked me through all available options, and I will go into hospital in 5 days from today for the tablets/pessaries which will hopefully encourage my uterus to empty.
In the meantime it may still happen at home.
To be totally honest, I just want it to happen at home. I want to hide away in my own bathroom and take all the time in the world to pass the sac and have a good look at it and have a good cry while I say goodbye.
I just feel stuck, not knowing if it will come out or if it will have to be helped with medication or even onto the more surgical procedures.
I am just in emotional pain and in limbo. Stuck. I cried so much the day we found out. So much that my face was puffy all the next day. I have cried a couple of times since then but I feel like I can't properly cry until I am empty of this pregnancy.
I just wanted to share but also ask how others coped.
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leothecentipede · 05/09/2014 10:34
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