October/November IVF

[Langpants]

Hi ladies!

Round 2 down regulation has just started. Embryo transfer should be 1/2 November. Going for 2 embryos this time.

Anyone else just starting a round? x

[TinyPaws]

Sucks that you got no resolution, but glad you don't have to stay in hospital over Christmas x

[BlueSarah]

Quick update - after waiting around for 7 hours it was decided that the scan was too inconclusive and they didn't want to operate. So I have to go back in a week for more scans and bloods. Hoping it will sort itself out or they'll have to stick a camera in.
So for now I'm going to wish you all a wonderful Christmas and hope the new year brings you happiness xx

[TinyPaws]

Oh @BlueSarah that's horrible, I'm sorry.

My first miscarriage was very long drawn out affair, it's hard to move on when the physical stuff is still happening.

I'm lucky in that this time around my body seems to have completed the miscarriage naturally, bleeding seems to have stopped after 11 days so not dealing with that anymore.

I hope you manage to find some joy and comfort this Christmas. x

[BlueSarah]

Just a little update on my saga - HCG levels have remained steady since Tuesday so I'm currently in hospital awaiting, most likely, a D&C. Although they can see something in the womb they can't 100% rule out ectopic so want to do another scan before committing and the scan isn't available until 1:20 - I've been here since 7:45! I am so hungry I just want to go home and do Christmas.

[Langpants]

Oh @TinyPaws and @BlueSarah - I'm so sorry to hear your news. That's awful. Sending virtual hugs your way. Xxx

[orangefolly]

I'm really sorry to hear of your losses @bluesarah and @tinypaws - I hope your loved ones are taking care of you and that you have some time to heal over the next few weeks. It sucks x

[losingfaith]

I've been watching this thread since the beginning as was going through the ivf process at the same time. So sorry for your losses, it is awful. Hope 2019 is better for everyone.

[TinyPaws]

So sorry @BlueSarah, it truly sucks.

Confirmed miscarriage for me, I'm still bleeding, just want it to stop so I can have a nice bath.

[BlueSarah]

There was no embryo. They could see something which might have been a sac so I could of MC or the embryo failed to develop. But they couldn't 100% rule out ectopic so I have to go back for another blood test on Thursday. What a totally shite day.

[TinyPaws]

Bleeding heavily today, it's all over for me (although realistically I've known that for a while). Good luck @BlueSarah and @orangefolly.

[BlueSarah]

@orangefolly I will keep everything crossed and hope the next week doesn't drag too much for you.

I thought if I got a BFP I would be elated but I just seem to have swapped one set of worries and anxieties for another.
x

[orangefolly]

That's a good sign about the test @BlueSarah - good luck for the scan! I have mine too next Wednesday and I am absolutely bricking it. It's when I found out things were going wrong last time, so I'm just expecting a repeat. Here's hoping we both get good news

[BlueSarah]

@TinyPaws so sorry to hear you have not got the outcome you hoped for; this whole process is just awful
@orangefolly that is very kind of you x I did another test this morning, 2 weeks since my big bleed (how is it only 2 weeks!) and I still have a strong positive. I have my viability scan in a week so I'm just going to have to wait and see. So scared to hope, I can't face another heart crushing so soon.

[TinyPaws]

Yeah I'm thinking of moving clinics, we've got an embryo stored at this one so might be tricky to move but I no longer have confidence in this one.

[orangefolly]

I'm sorry @tinypaws - it really sucks. Clinic doesn't sound very responsive to you - can you move to a different one perhaps if you decide to try again?

@bluesarah I've been thinking of you too and hope you're okay.

[RedPandaFluff]

@TinyPaws - I've just been looking for your update, as I was wondering how you got on today. I was really hoping for good news and I'm so sorry it's not looking promising.

Can you try again?

[TinyPaws]

Test still positive that but extremely faint now. Absolutely gutted. I requested low dose steroids due to the increased risk of miscarriage with thyroid autoantibodies, the clinic declined, now my worst fears are coming true.

[orangefolly]

How are you getting on @tinypaws? Have you retested?

[TinyPaws]

The clinic declined to do a blood test. I just have to take another test on Monday. I really think this is a chemical pregnancy. I've had several big cries and am already starting to mentally detach.

[orangefolly]

I'm still hoping for you @TinyPaws - such a nervewracking time. Hopefully they can get you in for a blood test to give some clarity on HCG levels.

[TinyPaws]

It's official test date for me and I've got an extremely faint positive. I went a bit quiet as I've been getting faint positives since 6dp5dp but there has been no good line progression. I don't think this pregnancy is viable. Trying to get through to the clinic now.

[TinyPaws]

Sorry to hear that @BlueSarah, that kind of limbo is the worst. Really hoping for a good outcome for you.

[BlueSarah]

Hi Ladies, just wanted to give you an update on my situation. First, thank you for all your lovely messages last week; they made the world seem a little less bleak.

Quick recap - last Sunday on OTD I had a BFP, then on the Tuesday I started to bleed. It went from a bit of spotting to full blown AF (red blood, terrible cramps) within a couple of hours. I cried for 2 days. I said my goodbyes, I accepted the crapness of it all and I made my plans to try again.

On the Friday I took another test - I wanted to see a faded line so I could phone up the clinic and confirm it had been a CP and make an appointment to talk next steps. The line was just as dark as OTD. Maybe it was too soon to tell and the hormone was still in my body? So back in limbo, still bleeding normal AF levels.

The past few days I have been having tenderness around my right hip so have worked myself up into a state about ectopic pregnancy. This morning I took another test hoping for a change (never wished for a BFN before). It is still a strong positive. So I phoned my clinic and spoke to a nurse and then a doctor who was wonderfully blarse about the whole thing. Basically said unless I think I'm dying and have more pain than a paracetamol can handle (in which case I should go to A&E) I should just wait for my scan (which is in 2 weeks). Loads of women have bleeding, some of it heavy, it settles down eventually. (oh I see, really sorry to have wasted your time!)

So now I am back in limbo again. I am still bleeding and have stomach cramps. I don't feel pregnant, physically and mentally I feel very detached. I plan to try and wait another week before testing again (we are away for a long weekend so have some distraction) and if it's still positive then I guess I just have to see what the scan shows. I will keep you posted.

There have been a few BFNs over the past week - thinking of you all and wishing you well xx

[orangefolly]

Oh no @tinypaws I've been keeping my fingers crossed it wss just too early for you. Have you tested again?

[TinyPaws]

So sorry @runchunkrun, that really sucks.

@Hana1979 Sorry for your BFN too.

As for me, I have been testing out the trigger and got my first negative this morning, at 5dp5dt. Feeling rather deflated as I was hoping the tests would not go negative - I had a clear positive at 11dpo with my previous pregnancy so can’t help feeling I should be seeing something by now.