:( does it ever go away?

[curiositykilled]

I don't think it does. Really, I am fine compared to how I have been but I'm struggling to cope today. I just feel a mess. I'm just crying and waiting for someone to help.

[MaryBS]

Don't feel embarrassed for the way you are feeling. Be proud of pulling your life together! You ARE allowed to have bad days you know!

[curiositykilled]

I just can't remember a time when it hasn't been hard just to get up and be normal. I have pulled my life together. I don't know what's going on today. Feel embarrassed for myself to be so upset.

[MaryBS]

Yes it does. Have a virtual hug, you can do this, and you know there are better days, you just can't feel it right now. Be gentle on yourself.

What I do is store up memories of the good days, writing down why they were good, and going back and reminding myself when I'm having a bad day. Also keep any emails from friends telling you what a worthwhile person you are (which I am sure you are).