I don't really know what to do about my anxiety. I've always had it but I think I'm really good at acting like I haven't got it when with others. I don't share my feelings on this. I keep so many worries to myself because I'm alone with the kids all week and don't have anyone to speak to.
It's really come to a head recently as I've started driving lessons. I'm early forties and expected it to be a challenge, however I've now had over 30 lessons and the stupid anxiety, fight or flight crap is getting in the way of my learning. My instructor said today that I would progress if I could shake the anxiety. He's pretty understanding really. He gets why I make mistakes. I suppose I thought after this many lessons I would be used to it. I'm not.
After the lessons I have a horrible irritable feeling, tension headache and I'm absolutely exhausted. It is absolutely knackering being stressed for that length of time, 2hrs, and although my brain, my logic can do what is asked the anxiety takes over and totally fucks it all up. Then it's like a domino effect; my mind goes blank. I hate it. I just can't get it under control. Obviously I definitely don't want to be doing this whilst driving.
I am seriously considering quitting because I just hate the stress of it. But it will be such a helpful skill if I can pass.
I tried to get a GP appointment today because I can't cope with it any more but I can't be seen for a week and I have no one to look after my kids whilst I go.
What would you d if you were me? Have you been through this? Is this more than just anxiety? I feel pretty sad about it.
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I think I have/always have had anxiety but I need help now
Justbreathinandout · 17/08/2017 15:41
Panic attacks sound awful. I'm sorry you're going through that. I have had instances where I felt panicky but it seems to pass if I can distract myself.
GP managed to squeeze me in today after a rang very early. She was great and listened and discussed ideas with me. She's prescribed Setraline, low dose. She also pointed me in the direction of Iapt too. I didn't realise it was in my hometown so that's a relief.
Not sure how I feel about group therapy CBT though. She said one to one is only for suicidal patients.
I just want to thank you all for your support. It feels so good to have finally told my GP I'm struggling and now help is starting. You were right, that first step is so hard but once taken is well worth it. 
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