Honestly had enough now.

[Mummypig2020]

My mental health isn’t good atm. I’m really starting to struggle. I just can not see an end to this. It’s making me so depressed. I have just been for a walk with dd3 and even she’s had enough. She’s begging to be able to go to the park, go to the ice cream shop or anything other than our daily walk.

I want to go to a national trust property and spend a ridiculous amount of cake.

I’m fed up.

I know I’m being unreasonable.

I want to see my dad too!

Uhh Iv had enough. I can’t imagine the whole of summer like this.

[Redolent]

You’re not being asked to “stay at home unless you’re a key worker.” People should go to work as normal if they can’t work from home. So many people misunderstanding government rules.

[Shalom23]

One if the consequences of lockdown is having a lot of time to think.
Usually we are preoccupied by the minutiae of living. Routines, work etc.
I think its helpful to shift thinking on this.
That retreat from the world we all fantasised about?
Swaths of time to just be?
Thinking about our lives AS THEY WERE, will only make it worse.
Easier said than done, I know but as a coping mechanism it's working for me.

[Pirandello24]

Gosh some of the comments here really lack compassion, which I find pretty sad. I work work vulnerable and high risk families who are really struggling right now and much worse off than me- doesn't mean I can't have a bad day too! I hear you OP. Struggling with the monotony of it all, with two young kids. You're not alone.

[Lunawuna]

I'm a keyworker, it's awful going to work everyday.

For you maybe. My DH is a key worker, who looks forward to the opportunity to get out of our flat (a luxury only afforded to our DC once per day for exercise, they're not going to shops obviously), and the opportunity to have conversations with actual people through his work.

[EnlightenedOwl]

I have had enough office closed wfh full time just work a walk and bed time nowhere to go nothing to do don't see anyone. Waking up and thinking what's the point. Holidays cancelled no days out to look forward to.

[StoutDrinker2019]

We've had the second wave. It's been around for months and months. I got it in early January, husband in December. I've invited my parents to come and stay next weekend. It's the safest time to do it when we have all be isolated for 6 weeks. Do what you have to do op.

[Methtones]

StoutDrinker2019

[zeddybrek]

Sorry you're feeling like this OP.

But I'm with you. Mentally it's taking a strain now. Even though we spend our daily exercise time in a lovely park near us it is still too much now. Today is the first day I have tipped over the edge. Can't get out of bed. Yelled at everyone and now just tearful.

What PP has said might help. I'll certainly try that, being more present in the moment and not thinking about the past of future too much.

This whole situation sucks and I can't wait for the day to see my family and friends.

[LadyofTheManners]

@StoutDrinker2019 I agree it's been here a lot longer. The French seem to agree after reviewing a small number cases from December that were baffling and didn't fall into flu or bronchitis category. Of 24, they found 1 definite CV19 case, and 3 which were similar but the sample was too old to be definite. They now firmly suggest other hospital review cases were samples are still available. The definite test was from 27th December, well before China acknowledged the severity.

[MrsCaplan]

I hear you too OP! This is getting really, really tough now. I too will try to exist more in the present. It's good advice for everyone at every ttime, regardless of lockdown.

Don't feel guilty for feeling crap just because some people sound like they've got it worse. Your feelings are valid. I share them wholeheartedly. This sucks.

[Davincitoad]

Stop moaning

Imagine someone you love dead and deal

[Mummypig2020]

Stop making me feel guilty for feeling this way!!!!

[Godzillasonice]

I'm in my 8th week as I was off work with a cough before this started. I am technically a key worker but haven't been called in. I know I'm very very lucky to be home getting paid but I'm really struggling. I'm a single mum of three (one with additional needs who can be very violent) and it's just so lonely. I miss all my family and friends. My children are all struggling and I just find it so hard to keep them entertained all day and let's not mention home schooling. I just want things to be normal again. Before anyone tells me they won't be for a long time I do know that.

[blancheduboiss]

@Mummypig2020
Don’t feel guilty - some people like to act as if the only thing you should dare moan about is death. It is a truly awful, worrying time, not only for health - but for income, jobs, and mental stability too. I completely understand

[Smileyoriley]

Don’t feel guilty OP. It’s easy for anonymous bods on here to give the impression they are coping. Their families may beg to differ! My children are grown up now, but I am sure I would have struggled with the cards being dealt at the moment, and trust me I have been through some very tough times. Take care of yourself. This will pass 💐

[Janaih]

Dont feel guilty, you're entitled to feel whatever you feel. Some people were last in the queue when god was giving out empathy.

[QuixoticQuokka]

If your mental health is an issue then get some help from your GP.
What help is actually available right now and what is appropriate when the problem is situational? Are CBT and other treatments going ahead over the phone?

[ReturnofSaturn]

I'm feeling the same OP. I'am not a mentally strong person generally though.

We are not living. Just surviving. I think what makes it so depressing is the fact no one knows when the end will be and that life probably won't ever be the same again.

[RunningNinja79]

I understand you OP. It is hard. I have good days and bad days. I've had a good day today, but am starting to struggle a bit this evening.

All the comments (not just on this thread, but others too) saying stuff like it's not hard to stay at home or other people have it worse are uncalled for and just not needed. They're nasty things to say and people who want to say those sort of things just need to fuck off. Just because other people are finding it easy or other people have it worse does not make your feelings any less valid or warranted. Please don't feel guilty (although appreciate how hard that is as I'm the same)

Hopefully in less than 24 hours we will have a better idea when things may change and we can maybe have something to look forward to again rather than just existing day to day. Hang in there.

[Mummypig2020]

Thank you all.

I actually tried ringing the doctor for help, I have borderline personality disorder and just wanted soemthing to help with my anxiety.

He told me to go running as raising the heart rate makes you feel happy.

My heart rate is raised walking up the stairs ffs 😂😩