Hello @Cruz86 i know I haven’t been in touch. I had a horrible and very sad time. I was in and out of hospital throughout my pregnancy up until April. This was due to the bleeds that I kept experiencing. I was told on my 20 week scan I had placenta previa and they could not rule out placenta accreta so then had to have a scan done at the John Radcliffe in Oxford. The placenta accreta was ruled out which was brilliant news for us both. My baby boy was absolutely fine and growing fine etc. it was in March on the 15th I had another big bleed again and went up to my hospital, where I was admitted again and monitored but also I was experiencing pains on the left hand side in my back and lower tummy and this was happening on and off for weeks and I kept admitting myself because of this and the bleeding where I would have stays in hospital be sent home and so on. On the 2nd of April which was my daughters 12th birthday I was experiencing this pain again and told myself I am not going back into hospital again today, I can’t I just can’t not on my daughters birthday, but it all got to unbearable and so again me and my husband went back up there and I was monitored and consultants etc knew me from previous times of going in and he said I am surprised you are still pregnant basically and so I was watched but they were not happy with the amount of blood that was being lost, and at this point my waters had broken as well, I was then admitted to Oxford at 1am this morning where I stayed for a further 10 days. Baby was being monitored all the way through and I was being given antibiotics incase I contracted an infection in the womb and had to take this three times a day, I was given steroid injections to help strengthen my babies lungs if he was to be born early and also given magnesium through an iv drip. I received in total o think 5 blood transfusions cos of all the blood I had been losing, also losing blood clots. It was so horrible and I wouldn’t wish this upon anyone at all. Anyway on the 9th of April I had these pains again , but was being told it wasn’t contractions as I wasn’t dilated at all and going back sorry I was also rushed to Bristol hospital by ambulance because of the bleeding episodes where I was there for three days as well. Going back to the 9th of April as well I had these pains and was crying in so much pain and was asked if I would like more pain relief and so I did and was waiting for my husband to come and visit me this day in the afternoon. My husband arrived but I was sent back down to the observation ward where I had previously been staying whilst I was in Oxford but because I was doing ok I was sent up on to a different floor, once we went back down to the observation unit I was examined and was told I had a temperature of 38 and wasn’t well at all, I was showing signs of infection and also my cervix was 4cm dilated as well. This was heartbreaking to hear this but most of all to be told I am sorry but your little boy is actually in your birth canal and we have to deliver him by emergency c section, I had agreed to this because this is what my plan was anyway as I have had three c sections before. I then went into theatre and the c section was performed and my little baby boy was so tiny, and astonishingly breathing for himself. All the drs couldn’t believe that he never needed that much help with his breathing and just had two little prongs up his nose. He weighed 927g and was so delicate and was taken to the neonatal unit within Oxford where I was as well. It was such a big relief that me and my husband said to each other it’s over, finally over no more going through the pain and the bleeding and complications that I had been through for the last 6 months. After the c section I was being watched for blood loss as they had put a bacri balloon inside near my womb to try and stop the bleeding as they cld see the bleeding when they opened me up and also some of my placenta was quite stuck as well and had to be scraped off, I was monitored for a further 5 hours but the bacri balloon was not working and I was losing a lot of blood, I was then rushed back into theatre for a hysterectomy where I was put to sleep also for this. They removed my womb but left my ovaries and part of my cervix in so I will never have a period again but also will not be able to have children either. Going forward to the 11th of April 2 days after and my little boy was doing great they said, he was still breathing well, I even heard little cried from him as well and he was wriggling around. My husband had came to see me on the 11th for a few hours and then had to get back home because my other children still needed care and so he left. I think it was about ten minutes literally after he left and the curtain came round on my ward where I was and stood a consultant who said Mrs Horton, I said yes she said I am really sorry to tell you this but your little boy has become really unwell. My heart just sank!!! Every happy emotion I had felt since having him just disappeared completely. They asked if I could come down and I kept saying my husband has just literally left I would like him with me so they had to phone him and he would have been driving back home, to tell him to come back because rhys had become unwell. My husband arrived to be with me and we were sat in a little room where we were waiting for them to revive him, his heart just stopped all of a sudden they said and no signs of deterioration what’s so ever, they managed to get him back after resuscitation of 25 minutes but when we went to see him you could see he was so poorly, his skin was blue and it wasn’t him in there anymore. My little boy rhys Owen Horton died at two days old and words or anything of the kind cannot express how we felt and are still feeling at this time. He was snatched away from us at just 48 hours as they are saying something to do with an air embolism as well in his body, I had a womb infection as well and I also contracted ecoli as well. He was perfectly healthy we have had the post mortem and we are deeply frustrated as we cannot even see the answers on there to how he died. We had a meeting with one of the consultants who was there when he passed and said basicallly the air embolism was spontaneous which to us isn’t good enough and we want answers now to what actually happened and we have now forwarded all the relevant information to a solicitor that deals with medical negligence. This was heartbreaking and still is, I cannot have anymore children either, a funeral was done for my little boy also and I only picked his ashes up last week. I will attach some photos for you to see but just wanted to get in touch with the group to share with you all why I haven’t been on in such a long time and share my story with you xx