Hi - firstly I am sorry if this is upsetting for anyone who wants to breast feed, I know I've been lucky and not every one is but please don't anyone shout at me I've really reached the end.
My DS will be 12 months in 2 weeks. I have breast fed him this entire time. He has been slow to accept food but has just started to increase what he will eat now to proper meals. He has dropped a percentile but that is since he started crawling and cruising so I'm not really worried. He doesn't sleep through the night, he hasn't even done it once. He wakes up twice at least a night and only feeding will get him back to sleep. I have 2 other children so can't spend all day feeding him trying to up the amount in the day time and so far have been reluctant to let him cry it out at night as he would wake my 2 DD.
Throughout the 12 months I have suffered from dmer which has been really really horrible (gp suggested cammomile tea) and I still have a very painful letdown even now. I am fed up of rubbish bras and the easy access clothes, small issues I know but they contribute to feeling a bit disconnected from myself. I feel completely touched out - have to force myself to cuddle my DDs and cannot stand my DH near me; I feel like DS has eaten me alive.
At 6, 8 and 9 months I tried to swop to formula. I tried every bottle and loads of cups and every formula and expressed breast milk- they were all refused. Both DDs happily switched at 8 months with no fuss at all. There are no allergies or tongue ties or reflux issues- he just is a boob monster.
So I accepted that I was just going to have to do the 12 months and hopefully he would accept normal cows milk after that or I could just load him up with cheese and yoghurt if not and hopefully by then he would be sleeping through etc. Except here we are almost at 12 months and he still doesn't sleep all night, still feeds to sleep and seems to need to feed at night. It makes him so happy in the day and night but I just can't go on anymore with it. I'm not someone who's loved BF (as above) and need to stop.
So how do I do this? One feed at a time? Or cold turkey? Do I try with a bottle again or straight to a cup? Do I just have to let him cry at night? Send in poor DH who has a long commute every day? Go away for a couple of days so I can't give in cause his crying for me breaks my heart? I just don't know what to do and I hoped some of you may have been here and have a brilliant suggestion. Thank you.
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strawberryowl · 28/09/2014 08:50
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