Scarred

[Kazjam]

My husband died nearly 5 yrs ago and every single day since then, when I have been at home, I have been into my neighbours house. She is older than me but has become like a mother. She has helped me through the worst part of my life.
Two years ago her husband got ill and I helped them. He passed away in Feb this year and again I helped her. We have helped each other.
Today she told me she is selling her house and going to live on the other side of the UK near a daughter. I told her that she is doing the right thing for her but for me it is going to be a huge wrench. Massive. I am dreading it and who will come and live next door to me.
I have a sort of boyfriend who is in the US and I travel a lot to USA every year...maybe 4 or 5 times and he comes here. However, we can't be together for complicated reasons which may sort themselves out , I don't know for sure. I am hoping this relationship will become more concrete so I can sort myself out....but my rock next door is going and I am devastated.
I know life moves on and takes twists and turns and new chapters but I am scarred.

[Lostpuzzlepiece]

I'm really sorry. Got no words of advice really but didn't want to read and run