Amyjade - trying to get in touch!

[Galmum]

Hi Amyjade,
I just wanted to say hello and ask how it's all going? I thought about you all at Xmas time - with your wonderful new addition to the family, but obviously missing Freya as well. Did it all go ok? I'm sure you must be so busy with 2 little ones. I hope you don't mind me getting in touch.
We saw family before Xmas and stayed in London on our own. We spent a lot of time looking at old photos, especially Xmas ones, and video clips. I have n't been that upset, hysterical and overcome with grief since after he first died, as I was on Xmas day. But we did laugh about the silly things he used to do and spent some wonderful time together as a couple talking about him - it felt very special and I felt so close to my little boy - he was called Digby by the way.
I just wanted to thank you for getting in touch when I posted for the first time - it was lovely to hear from someone who knows what it feels like to loose a child. Tragically I found out that one of his little friends (we made in hospital) died of a brain tumour on Sunday. His Mum had let me know the previous week that there was n't long left. I'm so sad that another family is having to go through what we went through and that another little person has died. We lit a candle for him last night. Planning to go to the funeral, unless the baby has other ideas.
Pregnancy progressing ok - bump is HUGE but nearly there. 37+3 weeks today.

[Galmum]

Hi Amyjade,

Just back from pregnancy yoga.

I'm pleased Xmas was better for you all than last year - - and it gives us some hope as a couple and hopefully a family, that we will be able to face another Xmas and things may be a bit easier. I imagine it will always be time of joy as well as great sadness for our families. We were the same - I could n't help but think how Digby would have reacted to Christmas - he would have been nearly 4 and quite different to last year I think.

I forced myself to look at the pictures etc and I'm glad I did. My husband has been much better at facing losing Digby - he plays the guitar in Digby's bedroom every other night and talks to him far more than me. I tend to bury my head in the sand and try to plod on. I'm fearful that I may just fall apart after the LO comes.

If you get the chance - keep an eye on the Jan ante-natal thread/birth announcements. I'm due on 27th Jan.

Thinking of all the little ones too.

[amyjade]

Hi Galmum

Christmas for us was alot better than last year mainly because of Libby and Fraser. We still find the whole family thing extremly painfull but we managed to spend the afternoon with them even if we were constantly thinking about the fact that Freya was missing and how she would have loved christmas this year at 3 years old.
How brave you were to look at video clips on christmas day! but how lovely that you could. I'm finding myself more and more scared to look at Freya's video in the fear that i might fall apart and fall into that pit of despair that i felt in the months after Freya died.

Glad all is well with your pregnancy and good luck with the birth i know it will be a very emotional and bittersweet time for you.

Thinking of your son's friend and little Maude who are now with our children somewhere very special. xx