Has anyone been admitted to hospital with PND?

[BionicEmu]

DD is 9 weeks old and, if I'm being honest, I'm not coping. I also have 2.5 year old DS. I've been seeing peri-natal psych team from early in this pregnancy as I was struggling with AND, & had PND after DS was born.

For the last few weeks I've been lying when my CPN came, persuaded myself & her that I was ok. Today, I just couldn't do it. Spent a good hour in tears when she came. She thinks I should agree to be admitted to the mother-and-baby unit. I just don't know what to think or do. I seem to be incapable of properly thinking about anything at the mo. All I know is I can't stand the thought of being away from DS. We're fairly rural, and my in-laws even moreso, assuming they'd look after him, so they're about 1.5 hours away from the hospital, we're about an hour.

I just can't be away from him. As awful as it sounds (& I'm crying while typing this), I would be fine with leaving DD, she's too young to know any better, but DS has been v clingy.

I guess I'm just looking for opinions, advice or experience really. I just can't think straight.

You haven't failed! This is a step towards getting better!!

Baby steps but you will get there.

Much much love to you bionic

Just read your thread.

Really wanted to wish you well, let you know how bloody brave you are & send you a great big hug.

Take care. X

Oh you poor love, it sounds like you're having one hell of a time. All the things you are thinking - about being a crap mum, failing your kids etc., are a symptom of your depression: they are not the truth.

I bet you wouldn't feel guilty if you had something 'physical' like a heart problem and needed to be hospitalised for that. There's still so much stigma attached to MH issues, and so much of it is internalised by us :(

I really hope you're doing OK in the M and B unit - I nearly went to one but was talked out of it by CPN and CMH team. Three months later, I was feeling so much better. There's light at the end of the tunnel, it might just take a while until you see it. Keep posting on here if you can. It saved my sanity during my really bleak period.