Since as long as I can remember my mum has been so emotionally unavailable to me.
I’ve never been able to talk to her about anything really. Things like starting my period, I hid it from her until she found out packs of pads had been disappearing and found some of my underwear.
I never spoke to her about contraception when I started my first serious relationship at 15.
I started self harming around age 18 and she knew but said nothing and just took my means to self harming away which she found in my room.
I never told her I was pregnant until I was showing and couldn’t hide it.
These are just some of the key memories I have.
Having my own daughter who’s getting a bit older now I encourage her to talk about everything and always reassure her I’m there for her for anything.
The point to all this is that it’s been really tough, and I just wanted to talk to anyone else who might have similar mothers? I’m NC with my dad so that doesn’t help and if I’m honest it’s a really lonely situation.
All I’ve seen throughout my life is everyone else with such a good relationship with their mum and who’s mums are so helpful and caring and I don’t think others can relate.
I have metal health issues I think mainly as a result of my mum always being so cold towards me.
I have an amazing partner and some close dear friends I can confide in, but I know no one in real life in a similar situation with their mum and it would be nice to speak to someone who can understand where I’m coming from.
AIBU?
Anyone else with an emotionally unavailable mum?
Watchclock · 20/11/2021 22:31
PhoboPhobia · 21/11/2021 12:30
Just joining in to say me too. I think if asked my Mum would say we’re close but only because we see each other most weeks and she looked after my DCs a lot when they were small (she was a childminder and I paid her).
But she isn’t really very interested in anything going on in my life. I’ve had some quite bad MH issues in the last year and have had a couple of periods of time off work. She knows nothing about any of it because she wouldn’t know how to respond and would just change the subject except to tell me I need to be careful in case I lose my job.
I have a very emotionally supportive DH. My MIL is lovely and I do occasionally talk to her and I am very open with my DCs. My DD and I have the kind of relationship I used to wish I had with my Mum.
I’m beyond it now I think. I understand more why she is like it. Her parents were very much like it and, as the oldest of 4, she didn’t get much attention or affection. (Not saying that’s normal in bigger families, just that’s how it was in hers).
My Mum doesn’t really know how to have a conversation. She only knows how to talk at you and pause every now and then to make sure you agree with her!
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