Dropping out of Masters so embarrassed and lost

[KnuckFows]

Realised my dissertation is simply not good enough. It absolute won't pass, it would be ok for undergrad but not this. DP is exasperated says I'm being too hard on myself and negative, that's not it though it really is not relevant and only realised what the problem is today and can't fix it in a couple of days.

I'm so depressed about this, and my family will be a bit contemptuous. I've dropped out of a postgrad degree before but really thought I could do it this time - and I have done well in my assignments so there's that. I will have a certificate.

My family all take for granted I can just do this level of academic work, I grew up being told how bright I am and im clearly bloody not!! I feel like that is (unintentionally) a set up for feeling like a failure when I can't deliver? Which I honestly can't.

I have an adhd diagnosis but not even really sure I have it, I have several medical conditions which can possibly interfere with concentration and stamina, and mean I could not try the adhd medication anyway.

The thing is it doesn't even matter what the reason is for failing, the reasons why become meaningless, just that oh look KnuckFows has failed again smirk smirk.

At a loss, not sure what direction to go in now without this degree. More fool me for thinking id get it.

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[BugBasher]

Just seen the date on this. Hope you got it done OP.

[BugBasher]

I hired a reader for my MA dissertation via peopleperhour. She was a PhD student in my subject & was fantastic. She didn't do any of the donkey work or writing but would tell me if there were any holes, problems with the flow, spelling/grammar errors etc. Most importantly (to me) she reassured me that I knew my stuff & that I was doing fine. If you advertise as a rush job you might find someone willing to help. It'd be such a shame not handing it in. You've done all that work & have all that knowledge, it's just a case of getting it down on paper effectively.

[StepAwayFromGoogle]

Bump. @KnuckFows how did it all pan out in the end?

[SevenStones]

@KnuckFows How did you get on in the end?

[BacktoMA]

I hope you manage to sort. Sorry if it's been said but I assume if you drop out you'll get a postgraduate diploma, not a certificate? This is usually enough for a lot of the professional postgraduate qualifications, I did the same, although as you may be able to tell by my name I've decided to re-enrol to do my dissertation so I can get the full masters as I always regretted not doing so. A PG Dip is worth more than a PG cert, hopefully you'll be able to sort one way or another though.

[Traynorbird]

Email your supervisor & let her know the situation, she might offer a further extension, but if not hand in what you've done. You scored well on your other assignments, this might be enough to skim you in a pass.
You'll loose nothing by handing it in & you might gain a qualification. Good luck!

[silly0ne]

Please don't give up. Ask your supervisor is s/he will look through a draft and advise. Read through what you have written and edit our any repetition; make sure the referencing is completed; read through some of primary source material and see if there are any more points you could discuss; make sure you have described your approach(es) and method of analysis. Make an action plan with your supervisor which seems feasible to both of you.

It is natural to have crises of confidence at this stage. If you were not good enough for the Masters, you would not have got onto the course.

[Nagsnovalballs]

How did you get on? Did you submit in the end?

[Sashkin]

Is there a service that can print and deliver on Monday if I pay enough?

Just spotted this: yes, Prontaprint.

Actually if you check your institution’s intranet, in the thesis submission guidelines, they may have a list of local printers. But if not, yes Prontaprint will do it with a couple of hours’ notice (dependent on which university and how far away the nearest Prontaprint office is).

[mathanxiety]

You should contact the department secretary to alert him or her that your delivery will be arriving by courier on X date. Get a signature.

Well done for keeping on plugging on!

Keep going!

When the worries come a-knocking, tell them you will address them later.

[SurpriseSparDay]

Good!

[KnuckFows]

Yes, they should, I checked this ages ago when planning to send it by courier in plenty of time ages before the deadline.

[SurpriseSparDay]

Have you checked that your institution/department will accept such a delivery? (I hope they will but I recall my MA Dept being very specific about the requirement to deliver the million copies of everything to the office oneself.)

[KnuckFows]

Thank you, I found one that can do it via my other thread. The first few I called wouldn't deliver to a university but this one will.

[Honeythekittycat]

www.digitalprinting.co.uk

Have a look at this company. I think they will print and bind your document and then arrange delivery.

[KnuckFows]

I am overseas, and have missed deadline with courier company for international delivery.

[SurpriseSparDay]

Is it really impossible for you to take whatever it is to London on Monday? That needs to be a priority, surely?

[bibliomania]

You can print it off and send by DHL.

[KnuckFows]

Not sure what to do. It's complicated but I fucked up and made a mistake with something else with timing for delivery - I thought the electronic copy would be ok by the deadline at first, then realised no it wouldn't it needs a hard copy (this is what I mean about the stress making me stupid - I am not joking I am making really illogical mistakes) and for reasons I don't want to get into I am not in London where it needs to be delivered.

Is there a service that can print and deliver on Monday if I pay enough?

I'm still trying after more sleep. Yesterday I felt like the stress was breaking me physically again. I was trying to cut up my food and take a forkful to my mouth, and just couldn't do it like 'normal' I couldn't steer it or keep it on the fork. I think it's just very toxic anxiety but of course I'm also anxious that I have developed a cognitive impariment which has links to one of my long term medical conditions.

[Reallybadidea]

And you've already been told that you can have another attempt for a capped grade so you don't even need to pass, just submit for the deadline and then you've got more time to rework it if it fails.

Come on, don't give up now! Didn't you say that this is in aid of getting a particular job? Don't let go of that dream, you can do it!

[JamieVardysHavingAParty]

As others have said, use a citation website. You can just copy and paste things into cite it right, and use the drop-down menu to pick whichever format you've been asked to produce.

[OrangeCinnamon]

Mendeley , cite it right and endnote are tools to use ppfor citations. You are just going to allocate a few hours rereferencing at the end.

Dont give up now...your self esteem will thank you for completing ..it will then get easier in life generally going forth.

You are very good at telling yourself negative things. Just try a whole day if talking to yourself positively and working on this see how far you get

[holymolyitsakraken]

Please don't take this the wrong way but you sound like you either wanted to fail as you feel you are not worthy and so created a self fulfilling prophecy , or you are self sabotaging. My husband did this with a big test, was worried about the change that him passing would cause but I knew he could pass. After two fails I sat him down and pointed it all out and he passed with 100%

With my degree I left everything until the last minute. Self sabotage... then I could blame rushing for my failure. But I got my degree. Once I had faith in myself I did well at the MA.

You can still get a Post grad diploma and graduate . Maybe even swap your credits to the Ou and do another mindful and get an open or related ma?

[Zippy1510]

OP- I’m a course lead for a university MSc program. Have you spoken to your module lead or course lead about your concerns? Have you had any feedback on the work so far? If you are at the stage of writing a dissertation then I wouldn’t give up now- you are right at the end! Have you had other assessments? If you are struggling there should be resources there to support you. Have you thought of giving student support an email?

[housinghelp101]

I used Juris-M. You basically put in the web address and it generates the reference. You can choose from a number of citation styles, it also automatically generates the bibliography.