End of tether

[rascalchops1]

Partners father commited suicide Jan 2009. Only son born May 2009. Partner has refused to have another baby. My mum died in August 2011, after battling cancer for 2 1\2 yes. I have been caring for disabled father and helping younger brother care for his son. I had terrible PND, no support for me or son from partner. Moved to house in 2011, partner hasn't done anything in house at all. We have never had people round etc, he didn't want to. I am still decorating the house etc, but obviously taking me a long time. I walked out in 2012, but came back a couple of months later, partner has now developed good relationship with son. Son went to CM, who maybe giving up at end of year. Other stuff has happened as well. I have struggled to talk to parents over school, although partner chats etc.... My son has said another boy won't let him play at school. I'm gonna see what happens and then deal with it by the end of the week. Feel exhausted and depressed. About my dad and brother, bitter at my partner for lots of stuff including the fact, that I feel my son missed out on not having a sibling. Hate house, although its a lovely house in a lovely area. I have an under active thyroid, which has led to I'll health and weight gain. I don't even want to get up in the morning. I've seen therapists etc... I know what I need to do, but just need to rant and feel I'm not a total loser.

[PeppaIsMyHero]

You're not a total loser.

You've dealt with a huge amount of difficult stuff over a prolonged period of time. I would be skeptical if you weren't feeling weighed down by it all.

It might be worth considering talking to the doctor about anti-depressants to help you cope in the short term? Also consider talking to your partner about just how difficult you are finding life. Easier said than done, I know.

Best of luck.

[Nabootique]

You poor thing. What a lot to deal with. I know you say you have seen therapists, but has your DP? It sounds like he has had a lot to deal with as well and may be depressed? If he could get in a better place you wouldn't be dealing with everything by yourself.