I am overweight (size 16-18). I am only 23 and I feel frustrated with myself with how I have let myself go in regards to my weight yet I can't seem to get the motivation or energy to do anything. I have attempted to diet in the past but it only ever lasts around two weeks.
I gained weight whilst at university as I had a lot of anxiety and I used (and still use) food to comfort myself. Every evening I eat chocolate and I am very lazy at preparing decent meals for myself so my diet is pretty beige. At 18 I was a size 10-12 so it is a pretty big change and I get so anxious when I am back in my hometown because I don't want people I went to school with to see me now.
I know how unhealthy my eating habits are and how bad my weight will be for my health as I have studied it at university in quite a lot of depth. I am not lazy or unmotivated in other aspects of my life.
Sometimes I feel compassion for myself as I know I am this way because I am using the only coping skill (comfort eating) that I have ever known and I have had bad anxiety to get through during the past three years. But I am also frustrated with how much I bury my head in the sand about my situation. I also hate that I am spending my early 20s so unhappy with my body that I don't want to go on holidays, wear nice outfits or date. I feel like I have placed my life on pause until I deal with this but I don't seem to be dealing with it. I thought after university I would be healthier once the stress of university was removed but I haven't.
All of my friends are so slim and they are so mindful of themselves. Like a friend started an office job and before she started gaining any weight she already pre-emptively upped her workouts at the gym to accommodate the sedentary nature of her new job compared to her previous more active job. I feel like they keep themselves in check and are very observant of how much and what they eat. I have truly just let myself go. I hate it.
Gosh I wrote more than I expected, I guess I am feeling worse about this than I realised.
Can anyone else relate or have any advice?
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Annoyed that I am overweight yet I don't seem to care
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myeverygoodthing · 01/02/2020 22:48
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