I should correct that really. Being with a man with a child is making me depressed. His daughter is actually wonderful and I have a lovely relationship with her.
I just need to write this down.
I've been with my partner for a year and a half. He has his daughter half the week. We want to live together but can't afford to. I have a son who's father buggered off years ago. I've been on my own for a long time before this relationship. I just want to feel part of a family now, as does my son
There's been some bad history in this relationship. Small stuff, but enough to make me feel insecure and anxious. I've never felt so anxious in my life.
My partner and his ex almost got on too well. There were no boundaries. They used to send each other selfies (no child in pic). In fact he once sent me the same selfie as her but put a kiss on the end of her message. Not mine. They were constantly texting, going for drinks, he once even refused to meet me as she was on the phone crying to him...she had a boyfriend at the time too. It took 18 months for him to change his passcode on his phone from her birthdate. We'd be having meals together and she would phone about meaningless things. He even went on tinder behind by back to speak to a girl who knew his ex's new boyfriend. There's more and as you can imagine has caused a lot of strain. I begged him to put some boundaries in place which he has. I just think trust is broken and I feel so built up with resentment
My partner is a 'yes' man. Anything she asks he says yes to. 8 holidays a year....no problem. For the first 9 months it meant I rarely saw him as he had his daughter (much more than half the time), using all his holiday so she could go away with her boyfriend all the time. I didn't meet his daughter fir a long time which I agree with but put such a strain on us as he works awful hours too
All of this aside, things are lovely. He's a good man, but he simply cannot understand why I'm on edge. I'm trying to get past it, but I just feel such anger and resentment. The fact he doesn't understand and has zero tolerance for emotion (I get emotional over it) means I feel a freak and thus making me depressed.
I've stayed as he's made so much improvement to the situation. I'm on edge as schedules and plans change constantly to work around her social life. Doesn't help my resentment at all. I just need to feel I have a bit of say in things that affect me (I've posted about how all over the place their arrangement is before)
Ergh, it's not normal to feel like this is it? How do I lose this anger and resentment? I know it's not helping and I'm at fault for a lot of arguments too
Not the fairytale eh?
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TwoDots · 12/08/2017 12:23
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