Hi
I have a beautiful family.... three kids.... found a lovely man who I married last year after years of physical and emotional abuse. I also have four step children. Three live with me.
Until last year I hadn't even entertained the idea of more children. I am forty two and two of my friends had babies at 42 and I remember thinking they were mental!!!
Out of nowhere I am beside myself with grief!! I want a baby with this man who treats me like a person that he loves and respects. I have never been made to feel loved and treasured but I do and I want to share a child with him!
BUT he has the snip about ten years ago! We will have to save for a reversal and I am old!! But the time we get it done I may have dried up!!!
I should be greatful I have what I have. But I am being really honest and i find it painful to think he has shared something with another woman that I will never be able to .... and it's pants x in fact it bloody hurts!!
I know I should man up and move on but I am struggling ....
I love his kids and I wouldn't ever make them feel like crap because they aren't responsible for how I feel x
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Want a baby but it's insane!
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Welshmamma · 14/01/2017 18:44
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