Here's a hard one. I know my partner looks at porn on the web. I'm sure a lot of guys do but just over a week ago I noticed he had looked at a 'find a sex partner' website and even worse, signed up for a month on his credit card. When I confronted him he said he sort of got sucked into signing, which sounds like a poor excuse except that he is one of these people who doesn't read the fine print and often gets silly mobile phone subscriptions etc.
I have never in 7 years doubted his faithfulness but I thought his excuse was pathetic so I decided to test him. I created a profile and then started messaging him with stuff I knew would appeal to him. At the same time, I was making myself physically sick each time he replied so I told him that I thought he was up to something and he said he had been chatting with someone and promised to stop. This was all good for 3 days but then he sent a final message to 'becky' before cancelling his subscription. His last message to her had his mobile phone number in it.
I honestly believed he would never follow through with anything with another person, so I sent a couple of text messages asking him to meet 'becky'. I thought/hoped/prayed he would ignore or say no thanks. But he didn't. He not only arranged to meet her but he then dutifully showed up at the location she suggested. I was so upset that I quickly sent him a message saying that there was no 'becky' - I had to know whether he would cheat or not and now I knew.
I think the worst thing about this is that while pretending to be someone else, I was working my butt off at home to make him happy so he wouldn't ever feel like he needed to be with another person. When I say working my butt off, I actually did things I have never done before to please him so I really did make a huge effort.
So now he wants me to forgive and forget - he knows he was wrong but he argues that he was always going to cancel his membership but then this temptation came along.
I don't know what to do or think. I know I played with fire. I really did because I made the deal seem way to good and 'becky' was based on what I knew he would love. As I said before he has always been faithful. I have no doubt that he's never done this before. Do I forgive and forget or not?
I should mention that we have a young family and he's a great dad.
Any advice would be great.
Sandy
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Should I forgive him
Sshhbear · 18/06/2009 13:39
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