My dp is leaving me in a few hours, after a massive argument on Sunday. I finally saw the light, and found the courage to tell him to pack his bags and leave by Friday.
So why is it I go from being heartbroken to angry, to feeling like I'm having a breakdown.
I really tried to make this relationship work, but realised he's a compulsive liar, a narcissistic and cruel man, and I have a feeling a cheater, truth will out at some point I'm sure. On paper many would say 'icepink you've had a lucky escape'
I feel so down, I went from being confident, loving life, and happy to feeling like worthless and a non identity.
Im scared, scared of being lonely, scared that I will never get back to the person I once was. Terrified that I can't trust myself and I will view the relationship through rose tinted glasses and if he contacted me in the future I would take him back.
My relationship history is a catastrophe, and I know I am to trusting and gullible. All I ever seem to get is the abusers, the bullies, the moochers, and always end up feeling like it's my fault for falling for them.
I need to get through the next few hours with some dignity, and to try and get back to 'me' again but never repeat the same mistakes. I don't know how to though.
I have already blocked him on my phone, as a precaution, please I need the strength to keep him blocked. I have spent hours these last few days sobbing in the bathroom, I've really let myself down once again.
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Icepinkeskimo · 21/08/2020 05:14
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